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the title of this post is "post" because my mind is fed up and i don't know where I'm heading... so, where I have been ??? pretty much nowhere. just here not writing and procrastinating for months. anyway... All my lights are off. Besides my glowing Laptop, it’s nearly pitch black in my humble one bedroom. I’m wearing a DCEU Flash T-Shirt I got from free authority warehouse sales I like this t-shirt because it makes me look that I'm a fan of Flash but I am not. I am the Green Lantern fan boy from the wrong side of the tracks. My nose and hands are still cold though. It’s much quieter in my area. I’m in a tucked-in neighborhood now, far away from any busy streets. Switching to this place from my usual 3 storey cosy-flexy Home it is not saving me any money well I previously said Frugality was the new cool but Fuck That. I'm flexing, I'm content fuck it all, I am just living. As usual, I’m going to be awake and the world will sleep . It’s so quiet that I can

Hey, Mark Dohner...

Hey, you don’t recognize me as a conscious being, but I exist and am constantly around the like buttons on your vlogs, and I want to speak up for once, after listening to your some of your recent podcasts with Pierson  so, real quick… I lurk and pay attention everything you do and have been since I discovered you during 2017 Summer. And from then to now you ended up becoming a huge inspiration that I never really thought I’d find or need since I’m very emotionally self sufficient and independent, and just assume I’d always value my own time and making meaningful contributions way before connecting. You’ve proved me wrong there. I know that I must feed my brain by embracing my creativity and striving to be more articulate and assertive in catering my own path. Along with learning in this unconventional way. I view you as comedic smart in multiple ways, and it’s an amazing thing to watch in the vlogs, and especially the year 2020 with your songs becoming my spotify playlist starters.

Why I Stopped Writing for Indian YouTubers ???

I am going to be totally honest about some of the creators on YouTube here in India. So, I used to write for some big creators in India I have written over 40 odd sketch scripts and general monologue content in 2017 and 2018 for different Youtubers here, first up they seem totally nice when you watch them on Youtube but not so much when you write for them, They're the absolute worst. You know as they say "Reality is often Disappointing" it is the perfect saying. All of them are pretty narc up in there brains first they totally think that a writer who writes for them doesn't deserve to be paid... like they're doing a favor to us using our content to make money. * "We will give you Credits" is the most popular sentence and it always comes first out of their mouth. * It is always your fault when they can't enact a scene from your Written monologue. * "Come up with something fresh, dude!" like you're paying me a heck load of a money

Lockdown #5: Self-Control

do you guys ever try not to do something, its tricky isn't it "Self-Control - A Stigma". I guess if we all had perfect Self-Control we would be these movie gods and rockstars but that is the thing we are not and to most of the extent that is fine. The point still remains the same why can't we control ourselves, Ironically the movie "Fight Club" (oh, yes i am movie nerd) is not about Physical Fighting it is about what you want ti choose a Chick or a Broccoli, Reading a Book or Reality TV. It showed us that the Self-Control is the epitome to ultimate spirituality we face everyday. Like Meditation is Free, Fasting is Free, Showing Gratitude for things is Free, Spirituality is Free but Consumerism isn't Free. It is a Trap actually Consumerism is the exact opposite. It contains Strong animalistic desires Sex, Sugar, Porn and Junk Food of any kind and We can actually escape this trap of Consumerism and Ego. WE CAN BECOME FREE, if we only just try... LOSIN

MLM, please stay away from them

MLM or Multi Level Marketing is all about recruiting sales people who will hopefully recruit other sales people, and so on. is it a scam ??? Yes it is a "sweet" scam where in the end you will think that you have ruined your Friendships, Relationships and your Willpower to do anything basically your Whole Life gets ruined. It works by word of mouth sales and the oral sales or "SELLING OF LIES" totally based on relationship (i.e. selling to your friends and family), in the hopes that you’ll not only sell to them, but encourage them to join as a seller as well. They preach making money in this way with ultimately very little effort, and it all sounds very tempting on the surface, sure but eventually your life will be ruined and will broke into so many pieces that you would not be able to fix it again. Don't want to nameshame anyone here but there's a fuck load of companies out there who had ruin a lot of lives and now in these crazy times of COVID-19 looking t

Lockdown #4: Holding Onto Anger

Life is truly just far too short to get hung up on things we cannot control. - Diksha 2020 HOLDING ONTO ANGER IS LIKE DRINKING POISON - well these times are crazy and calmness has left the body and brain. Yes, I realize that anger is a natural emotion that we can’t always control feeling but we certainly have the power to CHOOSE how we are going to respond to that anger. If we scream, holler, stomp our feet and throw a good old fashioned temper tantrum (and make sure we tell everyone on Twitter) what are we gonna solve besides dragging everyone else down with us? Is that fair? Yes, I also realize that you have the right to be angry and I don’t have a clue what you are going through, nor can I understand without experiencing it myself. I could share 23 years of reasons to holler and tell the world that life isn’t fair, but what the heck is the point? Will it change anything at all? I don't think so. What if we decided to try something new? What if we DECIDED to use our anger to

Lockdown #3: Finding the Passion

It’s gonna take me a while to get back in the swing of things, but it is good to be writing again. Somewhere along the way, I stopped doing those things I am the most passionate about. I am not certain when or why that happened. I only know that it has been an extended period of time since I have done those things I used to be the most passionate about, writing, making beats and serious photography. The simple explanation could be that I got bored with it all. That may still be true but I think perhaps that it is more than that. I seem to have forgotten that there is a big difference between simply existing and actually living. If I am going to find my passions again, I need to start exploring more avenues in life. I need to find out what does excite me about living again. I may choose the wrong paths along the way, but that is what learning to live again is all about. Where the heck do I start? Is there a magic secret to it all? One thing I do know about myself is that when I do

Lockdown #2: Discipline

Welcome to Prateek's Lockdown Diary again, how are you guys doing ??? The longer you go without working out, the less tone you get, the more weight you gain, the less likely you’ll ever start working out again. The longer you go without posting a journal, the more anxious you get about posting one, the less likely you’ll start posting again. Same paradox. Morning! woke up on the sofa. The TV’s on. because last night out of sheer boredom I started watching "The Vanishing of Sidney Hall" at an odd hour but let me tell you its a great movie ! It’s 5am. You turn the TV off and you sit there. You feel a little groggy, No bread and No sugar. did the same old breakfast and watched some News again about this demon Coronavirus. Took a shower. Clean up the room. helped my mother doing the laundry. Talked to my Life in Mumbai and she gave me few other things to think about, so I'd get my mind of this Pandemic because i just couldn't stop talking about this Covid-19

Lockdown #1: Frugality

All my lights are off. Besides my glowing Laptop, it’s nearly pitch black in my humble bedroom. I’m wearing this Bloodshot Tee that I bought in Mumbai. I like this t-shirt because it makes me look like I'm a fan of comic series but seriously telling you that it's a lie I'm a fan of Jason David Frank that's why I wear it. Man, Quarantine is hard, just when i thought that my venture was going good, Coronavirus came for it hard and pushed it further but still here Alive and Kicking I'm that mechanic trucker boy from the wrong side of the tracks. My nose and hands are still cold though. It’s much quieter in my Area. I actually like it, for once people are following the Lockdown which is a good thing, and this silence living far away from any busy streets. hmm, Good. Saving the Money and living with Frugality is the new cool now. I’m awake and the world might be asleep now at 12:40 am. It’s so quiet that I can hear the ringing in my ears. It reminds me of all the havo

Social Lubrication and Anger Management

Social lubricant. It’s not possible to have an awkward moment when you're with me, not even after this ultimate question. “Like what the fuck is going on!?” a straight depressive face at a Clubbing Event in Colaba, Mumbai. duderino ! can't stop it. I was born with it. obviously the sane one understood it the second I told them but some people just like to be a little judgy but can't do anything to stop them too. One of my most endearing traits is that I think to an ultimate extent. I mean if you're with me you'll always see my weird fingers doing something, yeah, its that Anxious Lubrication happening to my body at all times. About Anger Management: I realize that anger is a natural emotion that we can’t always control feeling but we certainly have the power to choose how we are going to respond to that anger. If we scream, holler, stomp our feet and throw a good old fashioned temper tantrum what are we gonna solve besides dragging everyone else down with us?

Voices

From the past two months after my exams and that one of a kind internship I was really having some trouble with my sleeping, Insomnia hits every night and the best thing in the world i.e "Music" isn't helping me with my sleep, because of this particular reason I started using sleeping apps which lead me to ASMRs (Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response) where I have now learnt a lot about the Voices within which I'm going to elaborate below: * Voice of Hope  The voice of hope still believes in fairy tales and happily ever after. It is often quickly smothered by the voice of reason, and ridiculed by the voice of darkness and doubt. But somehow, no matter what happens in life, this voice continues to survive.Yes, sometimes the light dims to barely a spark, but something keeps it alive, keeps it believing. * Voice of Darkness and Doubt The voice of darkness and doubt often believes that it is the voice of reason, that it is simply knocking some sense into me, forc

Accountability

"Hey" it is needless to say this word here, I bet no one expects posts from a person who prefer daydreams over reality. So, actually there is nothing new with me I've been Avoiding boredom and Avoiding accountability. How did I get here? Everything hurts. My mind is foggy as hell. I hate everyone and everything. I need to bite my tongue and save face as best I can. Avoid people. Next Month I'm off to Mumbai for a few days Drinking lots of water because the trainer said so also I don't want myself to be turning into a Junk Food eating werewolf. I cleaned my room. Sweating and with drawling and hating myself. Shame and guilt flooding my thoughts. I should finally write that final excerpt for my client Will I ever learn? something is wrong with me. My place is clean now. I still feel stable. I’m gonna read now until I fall asleep. Keep chugging back some water. It’ll be about a week or so before I feel good again. That’s what I get. Atoning for my sins. 

nostalgically cool

So, Everyone’s concept of cool is different, i started the post with 'So' it is grammatically incorrect wait is it!? Nobody cares. As i was saying everyone's concept of being cool is extremely different, for some Money is cool, for some having a nerdy collection of something is cool but Basically, people who live in the moment are actually the Coolest people. Interesting people that live their own life and say what they want that’s my idea of cool. So, can people change with time ? It’s kind of a mystery. Sometimes I get in these moods and get all hyped up like nothing is wrong, be all healthy, think long-term, logical. boring decisions on the road to SUCCESS! Then the next day I’m back to my normal ‘Fun World’ paradigm. Do we'll strive to be better? Or do we just enjoy the ride and go with the flow? Can there be a balance? Tell me this. If one guy lives his life eating oats and brown bread with peanut butter with a caffeine drink in hand every morning and he’s happy.

Comfy

The Last Post was pretty disturbing right!? I woke up today and felt why did i post that, last night when i wrote it, I poured my heart out into that post because that's how I really feel about being dark skinned well, its another day, another story to tell let the chips fall wherever they may. I'm being way too comfy with my life these days I should probably work more instead of finding different kind of excuses not to work everyday. Finding the perfect motivation is so hard because when you will find it maybe at that time your life would've moved on, but like the last post this is called LOSING THE HOPE and setting myself free I have a mini-micro-nano online Business, I have fun, I have friends and I am happy. I am out here learning from every encounter and journey i had been a part of. This is what education and self improvement means to me questioning everything, being vulnerable,unnerving, uncertain and human. One more thing Please do not judge me on the basis o

being darker

I am this dark ugly dude, you know what I'm saying I'm a realist. I see handsome boys its plain and simple I'm no handsome boy. But I got a kind of this uplifted average dark ugly male personality, most importantly regardless of this color i can do whatever the frick i want. Get some brands rolling and go all out that's my style. For me being darker is life, it's the truth, it's what God gave me, it's what i received from my parents and yes, generally people do not like dark skinned individuals in a room it disturbs them. Especially in India. Indians have a nerve to be the racist, actually Indians are the most racist people on the planet, Indians berate their very own country mates from North East India, well that's a whole other topic. but as a Dark-Skinned guy myself I once conducted a study where i asked random people "why there was a need to remind a dark skinned guy/girl that he/she is dark ??" by passing dark skin slurs at him/her. I m

Judgemental

Don't be so quick to judge a person, take a chance to know the person before you judge a person and that goes for anybody not just me. Suppose if you hear something really negative about a person, please do not make an opinion right on the spot, there a three sides of every story asses the whole scenario/situation before you make an opinion. Furthermore being Judgemental leads to negativity because of the obvious reason. In the past, I was all cool with it but in recent months I've learned a lot on how to be reactive in these such situations, being judged all the time is also depressive for oneself and As one who battles depression, I want to tell you that some days are extremely tough and on these days even getting out of bed in the morning can be a major accomplishment. Storytime: Last Week me and one of my friend went to a Volkswagen Dealership to check out one of their cars, we liked the car but the sales representative there was so, rude like seriously he was judging

Realist

I want to live on the other side, I want to live on the edge, man. Looks like fun, Everything is so happy and seriously, talking I don't how long I am going to feel this way, its great! So, for a very longtime I had a crush on this girl and yesterday I went to her and straight up said, HEY ! whats up... she was so surprised because i have never ever talked to her at work, I'm always very quiet. She thought it was funny we had a conversation it went very smoothly, obviously nothing happened but i really do think that she might be wondering what has happened to me. I mean its crazy, even i didn't know what happened to me yesterday. I daydream a lot. Like all the time. because of that I lose attention talking to other people. but I'm a realist I always confess everything here on this journal, and I also think that girl, whom i talked to do not read this at all. Why I'm being so fidgety here I'm never like this. Lost in Thoughts. I'm so done with this College

heartbreak

Continuous train of thought that circulated in my mind while i stared at my laptop i was thinking of new ideas for my upcoming projects but couldn't really execute anyone of them because I had something on my mind. I want to talk about heartbreak and how devastated it can be, you know some people are more sensitive than the others its definitely not the millennial problem it has been going on for ages, like Shakespeare is proof that people kill themselves over heartbreak its definitely one of  the most real pain that human heart suffers. And I just wanna say if you’re going through some sort of heartbreak than just keep freaking going ! try keep bettering yourself. You will seem to notice that this person who broke your heart has actually done a lot good for your life in the long run of being in future relationships. I mean you have to understand that you cannot base your happiness on that one person at all, you need to find your happiness inside your heart. Today when I was wri

super cheat week

The longer you go without working out, the more muscle mass you loose, the more weight you gain, the less likely you’ll start working out again. Same goes with posting journals the longer you go without posting the more anxious you get about actually posting one, the less likely you’ll start posting again. It’s like living in a world full of everything and nothing. So, my day started and i randomly decided that this whole week will be a super cheat week and is going to be filled with Fizzy Beverages, Beer, Burger King, and all the other poisonous things you can think of. Complete Freaking Freedom. About Writing my manuscripts are almost at final stages and more on this subject is coming later, but once in a blue moon I always have a day like this where I seem to get my life in order in merely a few hours. I always think that this might transfer over to tomorrow but it rarely does. Right back to latency; it is perplexing. I promise that i will achieve all these things one day: St

Who was that Girl ???

I haven’t had any reason to write in a while. I’m in this weird, content state of indifference. Stable. A down-to-earth, “dumb” state of ‘happiness’. I don’t really have anything to complain about. Passion? I’m not passionate anymore. What’s fucked up is that I don’t care that I’m not passionate anymore. Maybe I was never passionate in the first place. Maybe all these years my pretentiousness & ego got the best of me and blinded me from what I really am: a Business Guy I mean i don't have a fancy list of accomplishments but i have done some things. Sometimes my pompous, irrational ego gets the best of me and I think of myself as this suffering artist with all this passion. Its like everyone’s got a plan until they get punched in the face right !?  Also, I’m gonna wake up tomorrow and have a completely new, perspective on all of this passion thing. Now coming onto the title of the post I have a lot of extra aimless and senseless material which is of no use, i will be t