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Voices

From the past two months after my exams and that one of a kind internship I was really having some trouble with my sleeping, Insomnia hits every night and the best thing in the world i.e "Music" isn't helping me with my sleep, because of this particular reason I started using sleeping apps which lead me to ASMRs (Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response) where I have now learnt a lot about the Voices within which I'm going to elaborate below:

* Voice of Hope 

The voice of hope still believes in fairy tales and happily ever after. It is often quickly smothered by the voice of reason, and ridiculed by the voice of darkness and doubt. But somehow, no matter what happens in life, this voice continues to survive.Yes, sometimes the light dims to barely a spark, but something keeps it alive, keeps it believing.


* Voice of Darkness and Doubt

The voice of darkness and doubt often believes that it is the voice of reason, that it is simply knocking some sense into me, forcing me to …

Accountability

"Hey" it is needless to say this word here, I bet no one expects posts from a person who prefer daydreams over reality. So, actually there is nothing new with me I've been Avoiding boredom and Avoiding accountability. How did I get here? Everything hurts. My mind is foggy as hell. I hate everyone and everything. I need to bite my tongue and save face as best I can. Avoid people.
Next Month I'm off to Mumbai for a few days Drinking lots of water because the trainer said so also I don't want myself to be turning into a Junk Food eating werewolf.
I cleaned my room. Sweating and with drawling and hating myself. Shame and guilt flooding my thoughts. I should finally write that final excerpt for my client Will I ever learn? something is wrong with me. My place is clean now. I still feel stable. I’m gonna read now until I fall asleep. Keep chugging back some water. It’ll be about a week or so before I feel good again. That’s what I get. Atoning for my sins. 
I still re…

nostalgically cool

So, Everyone’s concept of cool is different, i started the post with 'So' it is grammatically incorrect wait is it!? Nobody cares. As i was saying everyone's concept of being cool is extremely different, for some Money is cool, for some having a nerdy collection of something is cool but Basically, people who live in the moment are actually the Coolest people. Interesting people that live their own life and say what they want that’s my idea of cool. So, can people change with time ? It’s kind of a mystery. Sometimes I get in these moods and get all hyped up like nothing is wrong, be all healthy, think long-term, logical. boring decisions on the road to SUCCESS! Then the next day I’m back to my normal ‘Fun World’ paradigm. Do we'll strive to be better? Or do we just enjoy the ride and go with the flow? Can there be a balance? Tell me this. If one guy lives his life eating oats and brown bread with peanut butter with a caffeine drink in hand every morning and he’s happy.…

Comfy

The Last Post was pretty disturbing right!? I woke up today and felt why did i post that, last night when i wrote it, I poured my heart out into that post because that's how I really feel about being dark skinned well, its another day, another story to tell let the chips fall wherever they may.

I'm being way too comfy with my life these days I should probably work more instead of finding different kind of excuses not to work everyday. Finding the perfect motivation is so hard because when you will find it maybe at that time your life would've moved on, but like the last post this is called LOSING THE HOPE and setting myself free I have a mini-micro-nano online Business, I have fun, I have friends and I am happy.

I am out here learning from every encounter and journey i had been a part of. This is what education and self improvement means to me questioning everything, being vulnerable,unnerving, uncertain and human.

One more thing Please do not judge me on the basis of my …

being darker

I am this dark ugly dude, you know what I'm saying I'm a realist. I see handsome boys its plain and simple I'm no handsome boy. But I got a kind of this uplifted average dark ugly male personality, most importantly regardless of this color i can do whatever the frick i want. Get some brands rolling and go all out that's my style. For me being darker is life, it's the truth, it's what God gave me, it's what i received from my parents and yes, generally people do not like dark skinned individuals in a room it disturbs them. Especially in India.

Indians have a nerve to be the racist, actually Indians are the most racist people on the planet, Indians berate their very own country mates from North East India, well that's a whole other topic. but as a Dark-Skinned guy myself I once conducted a study where i asked random people "why there was a need to remind a dark skinned guy/girl that he/she is dark ??" by passing dark skin slurs at him/her. I me…

Judgemental

Don't be so quick to judge a person, take a chance to know the person before you judge a person and that goes for anybody not just me. Suppose if you hear something really negative about a person, please do not make an opinion right on the spot, there a three sides of every story asses the whole scenario/situation before you make an opinion.

Furthermore being Judgemental leads to negativity because of the obvious reason. In the past, I was all cool with it but in recent months I've learned a lot on how to be reactive in these such situations, being judged all the time is also depressive for oneself and As one who battles depression, I want to tell you that some days are extremely tough and on these days even getting out of bed in the morning can be a major accomplishment.

Storytime: Last Week me and one of my friend went to a Volkswagen Dealership to check out one of their cars, we liked the car but the sales representative there was so, rude like seriously he was judging bot…

Realist

I want to live on the other side, I want to live on the edge, man. Looks like fun, Everything is so happy and seriously, talking I don't how long I am going to feel this way, its great! So, for a very longtime I had a crush on this girl and yesterday I went to her and straight up said, HEY ! whats up... she was so surprised because i have never ever talked to her at work, I'm always very quiet. She thought it was funny we had a conversation it went very smoothly, obviously nothing happened but i really do think that she might be wondering what has happened to me. I mean its crazy, even i didn't know what happened to me yesterday. I daydream a lot. Like all the time. because of that I lose attention talking to other people. but I'm a realist I always confess everything here on this journal, and I also think that girl, whom i talked to do not read this at all. Why I'm being so fidgety here I'm never like this. Lost in Thoughts.

I'm so done with this College …

heartbreak

Continuous train of thought that circulated in my mind while i stared at my laptop i was thinking of new ideas for my upcoming projects but couldn't really execute anyone of them because I had something on my mind. I want to talk about heartbreak and how devastated it can be, you know some people are more sensitive than the others its definitely not the millennial problem it has been going on for ages, like Shakespeare is proof that people kill themselves over heartbreak its definitely one of  the most real pain that human heart suffers. And I just wanna say if you’re going through some sort of heartbreak than just keep freaking going ! try keep bettering yourself. You will seem to notice that this person who broke your heart has actually done a lot good for your life in the long run of being in future relationships. I mean you have to understand that you cannot base your happiness on that one person at all, you need to find your happiness inside your heart.

Today when I was writ…

super cheat week

The longer you go without working out, the more muscle mass you loose, the more weight you gain, the less likely you’ll start working out again. Same goes with posting journals the longer you go without posting the more anxious you get about actually posting one, the less likely you’ll start posting again. It’s like living in a world full of everything and nothing.

So, my day started and i randomly decided that this whole week will be a super cheat week and is going to be filled with Fizzy Beverages, Beer, Burger King, and all the other poisonous things you can think of. Complete Freaking Freedom.

About Writing my manuscripts are almost at final stages and more on this subject is coming later, but once in a blue moon I always have a day like this where I seem to get my life in order in merely a few hours. I always think that this might transfer over to tomorrow but it rarely does. Right back to latency; it is perplexing.

I promise that i will achieve all these things one day: Structu…

Who was that Girl ???

I haven’t had any reason to write in a while. I’m in this weird, content state of indifference. Stable. A down-to-earth, “dumb” state of ‘happiness’. I don’t really have anything to complain about. Passion? I’m not passionate anymore. What’s fucked up is that I don’t care that I’m not passionate anymore. Maybe I was never passionate in the first place. Maybe all these years my pretentiousness & ego got the best of me and blinded me from what I really am: a Business Guy I mean i don't have a fancy list of accomplishments but i have done some things. Sometimes my pompous, irrational ego gets the best of me and I think of myself as this suffering artist with all this passion. Its like everyone’s got a plan until they get punched in the face right !? 
Also, I’m gonna wake up tomorrow and have a completely new, perspective on all of this passion thing.
Now coming onto the title of the post I have a lot of extra aimless and senseless material which is of no use, i will be throwing …

Things I want to tell my Teen Self

No matter how much we want to control our Life we can't always know what is going to happen. The Change is scary and Life will always surprise you with "Oh, this is your new truth Live It !" you cannot do anything you have to accept that. If i talk about myself and generally everyone my age we're so used to take so many things for granted like this blue sky, freedom, our home, our parents and much more. There is absolutely no harm in being yourself but if your personality is negative then some changes can be made ! so, there are few things i want to tell my teenage self . here we go:

* Embrace your introverted self.
* Do not take anything for granted.
* It is okay to be a late bloomer.
* People move on and so should you.
* Make friends who last beyond school.
* You don't have to do something just because all the cool kids are doing it.
*Always be optimistic about your future.
* People give far fewer sh*** about what you look like so don't bother.
* Its not a…

Elections

I don't believe none of the leaders the media is mentioning today everybody is crying and calling out each other for attention they don't care about the people or the country they actually only care about if their political party is in power or their pockets are filled with more election funds.so lets see what are they actually standing up for also I am not gonna mention them by their names:

1. The One: 

'A Narcissist can't die because then the Entire world would end' this sentence describes our Current Prime Minister really well in my opinion he cannot answer one single question in a proper debate and yet he wants movies to be made on him. 5 years back when he came in power and made a lot of promises and by saying A Lot i really mean "A LOT". The Bias Pre-Electoral Polls are rooting for him, Bias Media is rooting for him wherever he goes all he talks about is the failures of Governments before 2014 but not a single word about the promises he made to the …

Diligent March

Its been over a month now since i last posted a excerpt from my life here... actually i was really busy this whole time. I pursued professional writing during this time, traveled a bit, celebrated Holi and most importantly: Lived my life. Back in February of this year I was at an improv class of my theatre where we were working on different techniques of improv acting obviously i am not an actor or an on screen performer i am more into the scripting and writing stuff but its a class so you have to do what your mentors tells you to do... they gave me a task to present a weird situation at a public bus terminal... It was Comedic in Genre and everyone knows i have resting depressed face. so i took a quick minute to thought about it and did my gig... it wasn't too bad our theatre coach said "Sometimes it is good if you're not leading a performance to a comedic ending" means it is okay if you're not funny sometimes just focus on doing your part right forget about audi…

Stigma

Hey There ! 2019 you came. Its true we've come a long way by the way How's Everyone ??? please do tell me how you all are on the instagram (@prattg63) my dm's are open for anybody who wants to talk about anything they want. Well, for me The Mumps canceled every plan I had to celebrate new year. For a whole week, My face was looking like Thanos(from Infinity War) face with a weird allergy to my jawline. Now, its totally fine but for that whole week i was so horrified of myself  like what the hell has happened to my face, till i researched  about it on google, atlast that was a good relief because my doctor was not even telling what it was. I get it, i should change my doctor but another reason why i was so afraid of it because i thought its a bad case of my OCD Medication reaction. It has never happened to me but I've heard that its the most probable case so, for that reason first time in 7 months Lexapro and Zoloft are on the shelves umm I've decided not to take t…

Accurate

Hey Everyone... Longtime No See... well I've been busy the last 15 days. 15 days is actually a really longtime in journal days, its like a whole fad has gone by or something. anyway, Inspiration doesn't come easy as you think it does, I had some experiences in the past where i learnt this in the hardest way possible. The Time when all of my ideas fell apart sometimes i feel happy about that time because i knew that i was only letting myself down,  i totally hate it when i let other people down. I’m in a good place right now, and to answer why i am not with my commercial writing clan anymore because: Rather than express whatever angst and malaise that gets dealt my way by writing profane drafts, scripts and posts littered with curse words and crude allegories. I'd rather love to spend time imagining how immensely beautiful this life has the perfect potential of being. Sincerely, I'm done with those people who always tried to take credit of the work i did in my unaccoun…

Cathartic

The hardest part of being a writer is still the first read allowing yourself to be that vulnerable. well that was some way to start this post anyway someone asked me "Do you have Low Self-Esteem ?" and i was not even shocked because i took no time in replying by saying "NO !" to that person, I know that i have a resting depressed face but saying that i have Low Self Esteem is just the next level of Judging people especially when you don't even know me that well !.!.! We all feel nervous or afraid to do things at times but i'm pretty sure the decisions i have made have done a lot of good things for me. Achieving your goals always help to increase your self-esteem. I have always encouraged criticism about me and my opinions but saying the mean things like these causes so much low-confidence Seriously please don't say that to anyone. Negative things can bring people down so much. The only way to cope with these types of situations is by avoiding things an…

vital times

this is a post for my friends
and acquaintances from miles around,
i know its been a long time since
i've put a short post out,

but i swear it won't be
long now till the
weird kid reappears,
in the fall of 2018
you would see my words,

yeah it's alright now,
this dream of mine came true,
i hope the sad posts i write means
some more to you,

yeah it's alright now,
the time is here at last,
i know it's long since overdue but,
PG is back !


I'd rather pick flowers instead of fights - Adam Young

Thanks For Reading

Prateek Gupta

11:42 PM

Delhi, India

The Constant Battle

monologue 63
Inner Voice: You better complete all these assignments before the Diwali week !!

Me: I'll do it in the night.

Inner Voice: Okay ! I believe you.

7 hours later

Inner Voice: So, its 11 PM now where your assignment at ?

Me: Shut up ! you are such a pain in the tush aren't you ? Stop bugging me !

Inner Voice: Hey ! language...  It's your goal not mine.

Me: Okay, I will do it ! after finishing my night pages.

Inner Voice: Well I haven't recorded any night pages work from you in Weeks. Which pages are you talking about ???

Me: Oh ! let's talk about that... You haven’t been around for Months and now you're back at it again Interfering and stuff ??

Inner Voice: I’m always here. You just don’t always hear me.

Me: just go away !.!.!

in the morning

Inner Voice: Where are you headed ?

Me: Yo, you're back i finished 3 of the assignments last night. You Happy Now ???
'
Inner Voice: Just 3 your goal was to do all of them. answer my question first: Where are you headed ?

M…

accord

When I'm at Writing workshops, watching movies or at general public conventions i observe people and their relationships in like how do they carry it ?  after a Lot of observing and roughly studying There is one thing that i kind of have a grasp upon, that you can't make somebody feel the way you do about them that's impossible. I know that its heartbreaking and rough but it is actually a Cold-Hard Fact. You always have to be honest with the other person and most importantly you have to be honest to yourself its all about the Honesty, thats how we can all really be. Don't lie right!? and at sometimes its okay to lie because its the important things that matter, if we talk about relationships some people who come into our life could really bring the different side in ourselves it can be bright or dark it doesn't matter the thing is that this side exists and it was inside you for all these years you don't have to hate it, it came out for the betterment of your s…

regardless

'Decisions' we make them everyday, decisions leads us from one day to another, decisions change our way of living but most of them goes unnoticed like 'what should i wear today ?'  'what route should i take today to reach work and also to get a glimpse of my crush while heading to work ?' or 'what should i have for dinner ?' then in weeks or maybe months an important decision knocks at your door which can change your life forever. 
Hello, we're in the month of september already this means autumn season is just around the corner, Trees will be shedding their leaves at this fall of the month which is a perfect reminder of the nature to us that we should get ready with our cameras because we're all in a treat for some great captures. My Phone Camera will be busy this month *cheap plug please follow @gallery63photography on Instagram.
As a Playwright everything is going great and thanks to all of you for sending me positive thoughts about my OCD co…