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Accountability

"Hey" it is needless to say this word here, I bet no one expects posts from a person who prefer daydreams over reality. So, actually there is nothing new with me I've been Avoiding boredom and Avoiding accountability. How did I get here? Everything hurts. My mind is foggy as hell. I hate everyone and everything. I need to bite my tongue and save face as best I can. Avoid people. Next Month I'm off to Mumbai for a few days Drinking lots of water because the trainer said so also I don't want myself to be turning into a Junk Food eating werewolf. I cleaned my room. Sweating and with drawling and hating myself. Shame and guilt flooding my thoughts. I should finally write that final excerpt for my client Will I ever learn? something is wrong with me. My place is clean now. I still feel stable. I’m gonna read now until I fall asleep. Keep chugging back some water. It’ll be about a week or so before I feel good again. That’s what I get. Atoning for my sins. 

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It's an encouraging thing when you pour yourself into something and people go out of their way to let you know that they enjoy it. like even priceless. Just for once I want my life to be like a 90s movie. As I said earlier I have a lot of extra aimless and senseless material which is of no use, i will be throwing all of that here from now on. because why not ?! below is one excerpt, i wrote randomly: -Twenty Two- I looked in the mirror in the morning and what did I see? A average dark twenty-two year old looking back at me. How is that possible, how can it be? Wasn’t it yesterday I was nineteen? was living my best life, without all the worries. With twenty-five just a stone’s throw away I begin to wonder how to keep it all at bay Then I realize some aren’t blessed to see that day Life is short and I'm not getting younger, I wanna get rich like JP and Corden, 100k a month , sounds pretty golden. Another decade? to see... I think I’ll be okay. update* on