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Answers to The 10 things You Can Ask Me

1.    What was his first name in 1998 ?
Answer: It's actually very comedic that my Birth Name was "Nekchand" Gupta later on my parents changed it and thanks to god that they did now my name is Prateek Gupta.
2.    Who is Deeksha Diwan ?
Answer: She is basically my guardian angel since June of 2018, the only lifeline I have left in the artistic world my lovely editor/business manager/content corporate/deal cracker/excellent idea pitcher to be honest I cannot imagine my work life without her.
3.    How much work has he done on his novel this week ?
Answer: Not much, but I constantly do my morning pages. I have 2 WIP's and wrote for 3 clients this week. so, I am proud of myself. 4.   What is the other career Prateek had before Freelance Content Writing ?
Answer: I was a customer service executive for a bit, then joined a theater group as a playwright but left it because as my parents would suggest "it was coming in the way of my studies" founded a team and then a who…

10 Things You Can Ask Prateek About

1.What was his first name in 1998 ?

2.Who is Deeksha Diwan ?

3.How much work has he done on his novel this week ?
    4.    What is the other career Prateek had before Freelance Content Writing ?     5.     Between being an artist part-time or doing a conventional 9-5 job. Prateek would                      choose:

6.Thoughts on Marriage ?

7.His complete drug history ?

8.What is it like being a darkie ?

9.Why does he like moovies so much ?

10.Friends, Books or Telescope ?

Answers In Next Post on 12th September...
Thanks For Reading
Prateek Gupta

Voices

From the past two months after my exams and that one of a kind internship I was really having some trouble with my sleeping, Insomnia hits every night and the best thing in the world i.e "Music" isn't helping me with my sleep, because of this particular reason I started using sleeping apps which lead me to ASMRs (Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response) where I have now learnt a lot about the Voices within which I'm going to elaborate below:

* Voice of Hope 

The voice of hope still believes in fairy tales and happily ever after. It is often quickly smothered by the voice of reason, and ridiculed by the voice of darkness and doubt. But somehow, no matter what happens in life, this voice continues to survive.Yes, sometimes the light dims to barely a spark, but something keeps it alive, keeps it believing.


* Voice of Darkness and Doubt

The voice of darkness and doubt often believes that it is the voice of reason, that it is simply knocking some sense into me, forcing me to …

Accountability

"Hey" it is needless to say this word here, I bet no one expects posts from a person who prefer daydreams over reality. So, actually there is nothing new with me I've been Avoiding boredom and Avoiding accountability. How did I get here? Everything hurts. My mind is foggy as hell. I hate everyone and everything. I need to bite my tongue and save face as best I can. Avoid people.
Next Month I'm off to Mumbai for a few days Drinking lots of water because the trainer said so also I don't want myself to be turning into a Junk Food eating werewolf.
I cleaned my room. Sweating and with drawling and hating myself. Shame and guilt flooding my thoughts. I should finally write that final excerpt for my client Will I ever learn? something is wrong with me. My place is clean now. I still feel stable. I’m gonna read now until I fall asleep. Keep chugging back some water. It’ll be about a week or so before I feel good again. That’s what I get. Atoning for my sins. 
I still re…

Judgemental

Don't be so quick to judge a person, take a chance to know the person before you judge a person and that goes for anybody not just me. Suppose if you hear something really negative about a person, please do not make an opinion right on the spot, there a three sides of every story asses the whole scenario/situation before you make an opinion.

Furthermore being Judgemental leads to negativity because of the obvious reason. In the past, I was all cool with it but in recent months I've learned a lot on how to be reactive in these such situations, being judged all the time is also depressive for oneself and As one who battles depression, I want to tell you that some days are extremely tough and on these days even getting out of bed in the morning can be a major accomplishment.

Storytime: Last Week me and one of my friend went to a Volkswagen Dealership to check out one of their cars, we liked the car but the sales representative there was so, rude like seriously he was judging bot…

blog

About these writing softwares i tried a few of them today to improve my writing like take Grammarly for a second here They’ve already found “3 writing issues”. Good thing that was free and now I’m done with it, forever, I'm like who the hell are you to tell me that you've found 3 mistake in my writing come on .!! i haven't listened to my editor in almost one and a half year about that, also someone dm'ed me that why i use "Like"so much in my journal. First of all, why're you even judging a journal ??? I'll do whatever i want you brat !' do not read, I don't give a damn about anything. There we go, back on my liberating, crap of the world blog. "Blog". Couldn’t they think of any other word to use for words on the internet? I have done some serious blogging in year 2016, 2017 and 2018 at once i was handling approximately 43 independent article websites and i do not even have a count of words and companies i have written for. In 2019 y…

heartbreak

Continuous train of thought that circulated in my mind while i stared at my laptop i was thinking of new ideas for my upcoming projects but couldn't really execute anyone of them because I had something on my mind. I want to talk about heartbreak and how devastated it can be, you know some people are more sensitive than the others its definitely not the millennial problem it has been going on for ages, like Shakespeare is proof that people kill themselves over heartbreak its definitely one of  the most real pain that human heart suffers. And I just wanna say if you’re going through some sort of heartbreak than just keep freaking going ! try keep bettering yourself. You will seem to notice that this person who broke your heart has actually done a lot good for your life in the long run of being in future relationships. I mean you have to understand that you cannot base your happiness on that one person at all, you need to find your happiness inside your heart.

Today when I was writ…

Who was that Girl ???

I haven’t had any reason to write in a while. I’m in this weird, content state of indifference. Stable. A down-to-earth, “dumb” state of ‘happiness’. I don’t really have anything to complain about. Passion? I’m not passionate anymore. What’s fucked up is that I don’t care that I’m not passionate anymore. Maybe I was never passionate in the first place. Maybe all these years my pretentiousness & ego got the best of me and blinded me from what I really am: a Business Guy I mean i don't have a fancy list of accomplishments but i have done some things. Sometimes my pompous, irrational ego gets the best of me and I think of myself as this suffering artist with all this passion. Its like everyone’s got a plan until they get punched in the face right !? 
Also, I’m gonna wake up tomorrow and have a completely new, perspective on all of this passion thing.
Now coming onto the title of the post I have a lot of extra aimless and senseless material which is of no use, i will be throwing …

Things I want to tell my Teen Self

No matter how much we want to control our Life we can't always know what is going to happen. The Change is scary and Life will always surprise you with "Oh, this is your new truth Live It !" you cannot do anything you have to accept that. If i talk about myself and generally everyone my age we're so used to take so many things for granted like this blue sky, freedom, our home, our parents and much more. There is absolutely no harm in being yourself but if your personality is negative then some changes can be made ! so, there are few things i want to tell my teenage self . here we go:

* Embrace your introverted self.
* Do not take anything for granted.
* It is okay to be a late bloomer.
* People move on and so should you.
* Make friends who last beyond school.
* You don't have to do something just because all the cool kids are doing it.
*Always be optimistic about your future.
* People give far fewer sh*** about what you look like so don't bother.
* Its not a…

money

Yesterday, I read this article in the Fortune magazine titled "The World's most Admired Companies" it was a whole illustrated report to analyzing which Companies are really the World's Corporate Role Models with Apple Inc and Amazon LLC. toping the charts beating some of the greats in the game such as Berkshire Hathaway, Walt Disney, Starbucks and most importantly us the 'millenials' favorite clan right now Netflix reading that i was totally shocked to realize that it wasn't about how much capitals these companies were creating, it was actually about the morals and goals these companies are oriented towards because combining the capitals of Berkshire Hathaway, Netflix and Starbucks cannot even touch the capital made by the raging bull of everything Amazon. The list also consisted of the All Stars list suggesting Staying on Top isn't that easy as it seems with Google parent company Alphabet falling down in the rankings to record low of 7.

so, coming o…

Stigma

Hey There ! 2019 you came. Its true we've come a long way by the way How's Everyone ??? please do tell me how you all are on the instagram (@prattg63) my dm's are open for anybody who wants to talk about anything they want. Well, for me The Mumps canceled every plan I had to celebrate new year. For a whole week, My face was looking like Thanos(from Infinity War) face with a weird allergy to my jawline. Now, its totally fine but for that whole week i was so horrified of myself  like what the hell has happened to my face, till i researched  about it on google, atlast that was a good relief because my doctor was not even telling what it was. I get it, i should change my doctor but another reason why i was so afraid of it because i thought its a bad case of my OCD Medication reaction. It has never happened to me but I've heard that its the most probable case so, for that reason first time in 7 months Lexapro and Zoloft are on the shelves umm I've decided not to take t…

Boxing Day

When you get invested in something so much, you can't help it but do that thing again and again. Well, this Christmas I stayed at home and slept my way through boxing day took a break from everything i was doing, watched a lot of netflix and movies. Guess what ??? i have a lot of stuff to recommend now Go Watch: The Fix, Maniac, Ozark(Season 2), Jonah Hill's directorial debut mid90s and Karen Gillan directorial debut The Party's Just Beginning all of these are incredible and are of different genres so, pick one of them or watch everything. Also I realized there are always some disadvantages of your passion, i like writing aimlessly as you all know lot of my stuff doesn't even make sense but i just wanna write, i like it too much. I've been reading stack of some old writing notes these days, it is allowing me to gather my thoughts again. The things that i could do the rest of my life without any dread are Writing, Journaling, Directing and Non-Fiction. Haha that…

Accurate

Hey Everyone... Longtime No See... well I've been busy the last 15 days. 15 days is actually a really longtime in journal days, its like a whole fad has gone by or something. anyway, Inspiration doesn't come easy as you think it does, I had some experiences in the past where i learnt this in the hardest way possible. The Time when all of my ideas fell apart sometimes i feel happy about that time because i knew that i was only letting myself down,  i totally hate it when i let other people down. I’m in a good place right now, and to answer why i am not with my commercial writing clan anymore because: Rather than express whatever angst and malaise that gets dealt my way by writing profane drafts, scripts and posts littered with curse words and crude allegories. I'd rather love to spend time imagining how immensely beautiful this life has the perfect potential of being. Sincerely, I'm done with those people who always tried to take credit of the work i did in my unaccoun…

Key

Bad Dreams i don't know how to get them out of my head, my 15 year old self didn't wanted me to be a Writer, he must've thought it would be a hard life pay is not going to be good and you can't always come up with good stuff but now at the age of 21 I think I'm ballin even though i have less fortune but still it opened a great variety of branches for me and everybody knows that every career is hard in one form or other and if you find that one thing which you Love it than you just Love It. Getting into  what i love about writing  so much ??? is simple first and foremost i get to be free, i get to see people and change their character to anything i want. I wake up every morning with this same motto: Another day another story to tell life is running its course let the chips fall wherever they may. Writing taught me that life is a movie only time will tell what is going to happen next don't live in the past be here now don't worry about the future just get ex…

vital times

this is a post for my friends
and acquaintances from miles around,
i know its been a long time since
i've put a short post out,

but i swear it won't be
long now till the
weird kid reappears,
in the fall of 2018
you would see my words,

yeah it's alright now,
this dream of mine came true,
i hope the sad posts i write means
some more to you,

yeah it's alright now,
the time is here at last,
i know it's long since overdue but,
PG is back !


I'd rather pick flowers instead of fights - Adam Young

Thanks For Reading

Prateek Gupta

11:42 PM

Delhi, India

The Constant Battle

monologue 63
Inner Voice: You better complete all these assignments before the Diwali week !!

Me: I'll do it in the night.

Inner Voice: Okay ! I believe you.

7 hours later

Inner Voice: So, its 11 PM now where your assignment at ?

Me: Shut up ! you are such a pain in the tush aren't you ? Stop bugging me !

Inner Voice: Hey ! language...  It's your goal not mine.

Me: Okay, I will do it ! after finishing my night pages.

Inner Voice: Well I haven't recorded any night pages work from you in Weeks. Which pages are you talking about ???

Me: Oh ! let's talk about that... You haven’t been around for Months and now you're back at it again Interfering and stuff ??

Inner Voice: I’m always here. You just don’t always hear me.

Me: just go away !.!.!

in the morning

Inner Voice: Where are you headed ?

Me: Yo, you're back i finished 3 of the assignments last night. You Happy Now ???
'
Inner Voice: Just 3 your goal was to do all of them. answer my question first: Where are you headed ?

M…

unflattering description

Words play an active role in everyone lives, well surely it does have a lot of importance in my life last week, i got reviewed by my editor and it was terrible. There is still a lot of work needed to be done, my editor; she is really good at what she does and always tells me if i'm going wrong that is actually what i admire the most about her. She wrote a one-liner about my unpublished manuscript stating "Writer is presenting an unflattering description !" and after i got the e-mail i saw UNFLATTERING DESCRIPTION was written in bold and my spirits went down. but, that is the thing you get down and some things come to cheer you up. The bad is the enemy of the best, I have a good life i got better since last year i remember when I was sad. I really don't like talking about being sad. I think the term "depression" is overused, If it’s circumstantial, then you’re just sad. And there’s so much more stigma about being sad than being depressed. obviously I didn&#…

accord

When I'm at Writing workshops, watching movies or at general public conventions i observe people and their relationships in like how do they carry it ?  after a Lot of observing and roughly studying There is one thing that i kind of have a grasp upon, that you can't make somebody feel the way you do about them that's impossible. I know that its heartbreaking and rough but it is actually a Cold-Hard Fact. You always have to be honest with the other person and most importantly you have to be honest to yourself its all about the Honesty, thats how we can all really be. Don't lie right!? and at sometimes its okay to lie because its the important things that matter, if we talk about relationships some people who come into our life could really bring the different side in ourselves it can be bright or dark it doesn't matter the thing is that this side exists and it was inside you for all these years you don't have to hate it, it came out for the betterment of your s…

Avoiding

There are some things and phases in life which you want to avoid and ignore as much as possible but because of that you think about those specific things too much and that hits you. After August 16th of this month my habit of procrastinating came to an end and i finally finished my manuscript and the web series which i was writing for well actually assisting someone in writing but its all good i'll get the credits the money never really mattered to me anyway.

Coming to Avoiding the things during the Last Weekend a psychiatrist diagnosed me with Minor Effects of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder(OCD) so, now i am a 'Little Bit of OCD'. I'll be honest i was avoiding the symptoms of it for a longtime whether it was during the convos with some people or getting into the little details of not so important things. I was out for some phonography today and i didn't know why i felt so unnatural and forced while i was taking pictures nothing turned out good enough to post on In…

of june

I'm typing this at the most random of moments of sit down and write something. I know myself, I have always been a procrastinator but this month of June is really good in terms of everything content, its fun and with a few adventure activities plus traveling makes it even more interesting. Last week i learned that when i focus on anything specific it really doesn't turn out good.
Anyway one thing is really getting great this month we're almost finished in setting up our studio for both video and audio purposes and the good news is this that it will be free for everyone who needs a place to record something or finish up their final product. update: Next Month i will be on a lengthy break to focus on something else in other words live my life !.!.!

More On That Later.

Music Forever and Always.

Thanks For Reading

Prateek Gupta

12:08 AM

Delhi, India.



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