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the title of this post is "post" because my mind is fed up and i don't know where I'm heading... so, where I have been ??? pretty much nowhere. just here not writing and procrastinating for months. anyway...All my lights are off. Besides my glowing Laptop, it’s nearly pitch black in my humble one bedroom. I’m wearing a DCEU Flash T-Shirt I got from free authority warehouse sales I like this t-shirt because it makes me look that I'm a fan of Flash but I am not. I am the Green Lantern fan boy from the wrong side of the tracks. My nose and hands are still cold though. It’s much quieter in my area. I’m in a tucked-in neighborhood now, far away from any busy streets. Switching to this place from my usual 3 storey cosy-flexy Home it is not saving me any money well I previously said Frugality was the new cool but Fuck That. I'm flexing, I'm content fuck it all, I am just living.As usual, I’m going to be awake and the world will sleep . It’s so quiet that I can h…

MLM, please stay away from them

MLM or Multi Level Marketing is all about recruiting sales people who will hopefully recruit other sales people, and so on. is it a scam ??? Yes it is a "sweet" scam where in the end you will think that you have ruined your Friendships, Relationships and your Willpower to do anything basically your Whole Life gets ruined. It works by word of mouth sales and the oral sales or "SELLING OF LIES" totally based on relationship (i.e. selling to your friends and family), in the hopes that you’ll not only sell to them, but encourage them to join as a seller as well. They preach making money in this way with ultimately very little effort, and it all sounds very tempting on the surface, sure but eventually your life will be ruined and will broke into so many pieces that you would not be able to fix it again. Don't want to nameshame anyone here but there's a fuck load of companies out there who had ruin a lot of lives and now in these crazy times of COVID-19 looking …

Lockdown #4: Holding Onto Anger

Life is truly just far too short to get hung up on things we cannot control. - Diksha 2020

HOLDING ONTO ANGER IS LIKE DRINKING POISON - well these times are crazy and calmness has left the body and brain. Yes, I realize that anger is a natural emotion that we can’t always control feeling but we certainly have the power to CHOOSE how we are going to respond to that anger. If we scream, holler, stomp our feet and throw a good old fashioned temper tantrum (and make sure we tell everyone on Twitter) what are we gonna solve besides dragging everyone else down with us? Is that fair? Yes, I also realize that you have the right to be angry and I don’t have a clue what you are going through, nor can I understand without experiencing it myself.

I could share 23 years of reasons to holler and tell the world that life isn’t fair, but what the heck is the point? Will it change anything at all? I don't think so. What if we decided to try something new? What if we DECIDED to use our anger to po…

Lockdown #3: Finding the Passion

It’s gonna take me a while to get back in the swing of things, but it is good to be writing again. Somewhere along the way, I stopped doing those things I am the most passionate about. I am not certain when or why that happened. I only know that it has been an extended period of time since I have done those things I used to be the most passionate about, writing, making beats and serious photography. The simple explanation could be that I got bored with it all. That may still be true but I think perhaps that it is more than that. I seem to have forgotten that there is a big difference between simply existing and actually living.
If I am going to find my passions again, I need to start exploring more avenues in life. I need to find out what does excite me about living again. I may choose the wrong paths along the way, but that is what learning to live again is all about. Where the heck do I start? Is there a magic secret to it all? One thing I do know about myself is that when I don’t …

front back

“The first draft of anything is shit.” - ErnestHemingwayTo me, the reason I have trouble sitting down and writing is because I have nothing to write about. I'm forcing myself, i should just live life and write when I want to. When it comes naturally. I'm just a human being.Fucking true facts right here. the daily sequence of events is spot on. Endless circles of “but this first…” Depression is just this phase everyone goes through in life, either short or long, severe or mild, and can be a result of many different things, circumstances, brain chemistry, nature, nurture, negative thoughts, diet, drug abuse, etc. and can usually be treated with clean living (exercise, diet, sleep) and cognitive behavioral therapy (fancy term for attitude adjustment) and/or medications, as well as a healthy balance of work (that you’re preferably proud of and at least don’t hate), family, and friends.Wow I should write a textbook or something. That is if I did write regularly. What’s it been, oh …

Dear Mumbai...

Dear Mumbai,You're Beautiful and I Have a Crush On you and I know that it is early in our relationship but I have to get it off my chest following is a excerpt about really pretty girls which kinda reminds of Mumbai anyways and Job Interviews So, I recently decided to give a visit to the city I've always loved but not in July and August because nothing really significant happens there in that span other than Heavy Rain.Just a heads up that 10 months back I  met a girl in the parking lot of Delhi and all I did was say hello but she didn't respond there later on it turned out that she was my boss here. "STORYTIME"So, here how's the story has rolled out so far it is basically a boy meeting a girl, but the girl being standoffish despite the fact that he's only trying to be a gentleman. Maybe the girl has been hurt before, or just doesn't trust people easily, the two could even go hand-in-hand, because of course, that the way it goes.Different scenario, sa…

Social Lubrication and Anger Management

Social lubricant. It’s not possible to have an awkward moment when you're with me, not even after this ultimate question.

“Like what the fuck is going on!?” a straight depressive face at a Clubbing Event in Colaba, Mumbai.

duderino ! can't stop it. I was born with it. obviously the sane one understood it the second I told them but some people just like to be a little judgy but can't do anything to stop them too. One of my most endearing traits is that I think to an ultimate extent. I mean if you're with me you'll always see my weird fingers doing something, yeah, its that Anxious Lubrication happening to my body at all times.

About Anger Management: I realize that anger is a natural emotion that we can’t always control feeling but we certainly have the power to choose how we are going to respond to that anger. If we scream, holler, stomp our feet and throw a good old fashioned temper tantrum what are we gonna solve besides dragging everyone else down with us? Is t…

Answers to The 10 things You Can Ask Me

1.    What was his first name in 1998 ?
Answer: It's actually very comedic that my Birth Name was "Nekchand" Gupta later on my parents changed it and thanks to god that they did now my name is Prateek Gupta.
2.    Who is Deeksha Diwan ?
Answer: She is basically my guardian angel since June of 2018, the only lifeline I have left in the artistic world my lovely editor/business manager/content corporate/deal cracker/excellent idea pitcher to be honest I cannot imagine my work life without her.
3.    How much work has he done on his novel this week ?
Answer: Not much, but I constantly do my morning pages. I have 2 WIP's and wrote for 3 clients this week. so, I am proud of myself. 4.   What is the other career Prateek had before Freelance Content Writing ?
Answer: I was a customer service executive for a bit, then joined a theater group as a playwright but left it because as my parents would suggest "it was coming in the way of my studies" founded a team and then a who…

10 Things You Can Ask Prateek About

1.What was his first name in 1998 ?

2.Who is Deeksha Diwan ?

3.How much work has he done on his novel this week ?
    4.    What is the other career Prateek had before Freelance Content Writing ?     5.     Between being an artist part-time or doing a conventional 9-5 job. Prateek would                      choose:

6.Thoughts on Marriage ?

7.His complete drug history ?

8.What is it like being a darkie ?

9.Why does he like moovies so much ?

10.Friends, Books or Telescope ?

Answers In Next Post on 12th September...
Thanks For Reading
Prateek Gupta

Voices

From the past two months after my exams and that one of a kind internship I was really having some trouble with my sleeping, Insomnia hits every night and the best thing in the world i.e "Music" isn't helping me with my sleep, because of this particular reason I started using sleeping apps which lead me to ASMRs (Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response) where I have now learnt a lot about the Voices within which I'm going to elaborate below:

* Voice of Hope 

The voice of hope still believes in fairy tales and happily ever after. It is often quickly smothered by the voice of reason, and ridiculed by the voice of darkness and doubt. But somehow, no matter what happens in life, this voice continues to survive.Yes, sometimes the light dims to barely a spark, but something keeps it alive, keeps it believing.


* Voice of Darkness and Doubt

The voice of darkness and doubt often believes that it is the voice of reason, that it is simply knocking some sense into me, forcing me to …

Accountability

"Hey" it is needless to say this word here, I bet no one expects posts from a person who prefer daydreams over reality. So, actually there is nothing new with me I've been Avoiding boredom and Avoiding accountability. How did I get here? Everything hurts. My mind is foggy as hell. I hate everyone and everything. I need to bite my tongue and save face as best I can. Avoid people.
Next Month I'm off to Mumbai for a few days Drinking lots of water because the trainer said so also I don't want myself to be turning into a Junk Food eating werewolf.
I cleaned my room. Sweating and with drawling and hating myself. Shame and guilt flooding my thoughts. I should finally write that final excerpt for my client Will I ever learn? something is wrong with me. My place is clean now. I still feel stable. I’m gonna read now until I fall asleep. Keep chugging back some water. It’ll be about a week or so before I feel good again. That’s what I get. Atoning for my sins. 
I still re…

Judgemental

Don't be so quick to judge a person, take a chance to know the person before you judge a person and that goes for anybody not just me. Suppose if you hear something really negative about a person, please do not make an opinion right on the spot, there a three sides of every story asses the whole scenario/situation before you make an opinion.

Furthermore being Judgemental leads to negativity because of the obvious reason. In the past, I was all cool with it but in recent months I've learned a lot on how to be reactive in these such situations, being judged all the time is also depressive for oneself and As one who battles depression, I want to tell you that some days are extremely tough and on these days even getting out of bed in the morning can be a major accomplishment.

Storytime: Last Week me and one of my friend went to a Volkswagen Dealership to check out one of their cars, we liked the car but the sales representative there was so, rude like seriously he was judging bot…

blog

About these writing softwares i tried a few of them today to improve my writing like take Grammarly for a second here They’ve already found “3 writing issues”. Good thing that was free and now I’m done with it, forever, I'm like who the hell are you to tell me that you've found 3 mistake in my writing come on .!! i haven't listened to my editor in almost one and a half year about that, also someone dm'ed me that why i use "Like"so much in my journal. First of all, why're you even judging a journal ??? I'll do whatever i want you brat !' do not read, I don't give a damn about anything. There we go, back on my liberating, crap of the world blog. "Blog". Couldn’t they think of any other word to use for words on the internet? I have done some serious blogging in year 2016, 2017 and 2018 at once i was handling approximately 43 independent article websites and i do not even have a count of words and companies i have written for. In 2019 y…

heartbreak

Continuous train of thought that circulated in my mind while i stared at my laptop i was thinking of new ideas for my upcoming projects but couldn't really execute anyone of them because I had something on my mind. I want to talk about heartbreak and how devastated it can be, you know some people are more sensitive than the others its definitely not the millennial problem it has been going on for ages, like Shakespeare is proof that people kill themselves over heartbreak its definitely one of  the most real pain that human heart suffers. And I just wanna say if you’re going through some sort of heartbreak than just keep freaking going ! try keep bettering yourself. You will seem to notice that this person who broke your heart has actually done a lot good for your life in the long run of being in future relationships. I mean you have to understand that you cannot base your happiness on that one person at all, you need to find your happiness inside your heart.

Today when I was writ…

Who was that Girl ???

I haven’t had any reason to write in a while. I’m in this weird, content state of indifference. Stable. A down-to-earth, “dumb” state of ‘happiness’. I don’t really have anything to complain about. Passion? I’m not passionate anymore. What’s fucked up is that I don’t care that I’m not passionate anymore. Maybe I was never passionate in the first place. Maybe all these years my pretentiousness & ego got the best of me and blinded me from what I really am: a Business Guy I mean i don't have a fancy list of accomplishments but i have done some things. Sometimes my pompous, irrational ego gets the best of me and I think of myself as this suffering artist with all this passion. Its like everyone’s got a plan until they get punched in the face right !? 
Also, I’m gonna wake up tomorrow and have a completely new, perspective on all of this passion thing.
Now coming onto the title of the post I have a lot of extra aimless and senseless material which is of no use, i will be throwing …

Things I want to tell my Teen Self

No matter how much we want to control our Life we can't always know what is going to happen. The Change is scary and Life will always surprise you with "Oh, this is your new truth Live It !" you cannot do anything you have to accept that. If i talk about myself and generally everyone my age we're so used to take so many things for granted like this blue sky, freedom, our home, our parents and much more. There is absolutely no harm in being yourself but if your personality is negative then some changes can be made ! so, there are few things i want to tell my teenage self . here we go:

* Embrace your introverted self.
* Do not take anything for granted.
* It is okay to be a late bloomer.
* People move on and so should you.
* Make friends who last beyond school.
* You don't have to do something just because all the cool kids are doing it.
*Always be optimistic about your future.
* People give far fewer sh*** about what you look like so don't bother.
* Its not a…

money

Yesterday, I read this article in the Fortune magazine titled "The World's most Admired Companies" it was a whole illustrated report to analyzing which Companies are really the World's Corporate Role Models with Apple Inc and Amazon LLC. toping the charts beating some of the greats in the game such as Berkshire Hathaway, Walt Disney, Starbucks and most importantly us the 'millenials' favorite clan right now Netflix reading that i was totally shocked to realize that it wasn't about how much capitals these companies were creating, it was actually about the morals and goals these companies are oriented towards because combining the capitals of Berkshire Hathaway, Netflix and Starbucks cannot even touch the capital made by the raging bull of everything Amazon. The list also consisted of the All Stars list suggesting Staying on Top isn't that easy as it seems with Google parent company Alphabet falling down in the rankings to record low of 7.

so, coming o…

Stigma

Hey There ! 2019 you came. Its true we've come a long way by the way How's Everyone ??? please do tell me how you all are on the instagram (@prattg63) my dm's are open for anybody who wants to talk about anything they want. Well, for me The Mumps canceled every plan I had to celebrate new year. For a whole week, My face was looking like Thanos(from Infinity War) face with a weird allergy to my jawline. Now, its totally fine but for that whole week i was so horrified of myself  like what the hell has happened to my face, till i researched  about it on google, atlast that was a good relief because my doctor was not even telling what it was. I get it, i should change my doctor but another reason why i was so afraid of it because i thought its a bad case of my OCD Medication reaction. It has never happened to me but I've heard that its the most probable case so, for that reason first time in 7 months Lexapro and Zoloft are on the shelves umm I've decided not to take t…

Boxing Day

When you get invested in something so much, you can't help it but do that thing again and again. Well, this Christmas I stayed at home and slept my way through boxing day took a break from everything i was doing, watched a lot of netflix and movies. Guess what ??? i have a lot of stuff to recommend now Go Watch: The Fix, Maniac, Ozark(Season 2), Jonah Hill's directorial debut mid90s and Karen Gillan directorial debut The Party's Just Beginning all of these are incredible and are of different genres so, pick one of them or watch everything. Also I realized there are always some disadvantages of your passion, i like writing aimlessly as you all know lot of my stuff doesn't even make sense but i just wanna write, i like it too much. I've been reading stack of some old writing notes these days, it is allowing me to gather my thoughts again. The things that i could do the rest of my life without any dread are Writing, Journaling, Directing and Non-Fiction. Haha that…

Accurate

Hey Everyone... Longtime No See... well I've been busy the last 15 days. 15 days is actually a really longtime in journal days, its like a whole fad has gone by or something. anyway, Inspiration doesn't come easy as you think it does, I had some experiences in the past where i learnt this in the hardest way possible. The Time when all of my ideas fell apart sometimes i feel happy about that time because i knew that i was only letting myself down,  i totally hate it when i let other people down. I’m in a good place right now, and to answer why i am not with my commercial writing clan anymore because: Rather than express whatever angst and malaise that gets dealt my way by writing profane drafts, scripts and posts littered with curse words and crude allegories. I'd rather love to spend time imagining how immensely beautiful this life has the perfect potential of being. Sincerely, I'm done with those people who always tried to take credit of the work i did in my unaccoun…