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the magic

Every journey starts with that first step, even knowing that there may be several course corrections along the way. It’s not enough to dream and plan. At some point, you have to take action, even if you’re not quite sure where you’re headed. I have spent 2 years now dreaming about converting my non-fiction manuscript into a book but I don't know where I'm going wrong because its just not happening. The Editor assigned to me by a literary agent is giving up on me now, I just can't find the perfect balance in the storyline and realism it leads upto. One thing I do know about myself is that when I don’t have new challenges, I tend to get bored. When that happens, I just sort of go on autopilot. I go through the motions, where the excitement dissipates quickly. For me, it is like trekking the same forest over and over again. Even though you see new things each time you go, eventually it just gets old. Step one for me will be taking some random online classes to check out thin…

dreamy dilemma

Watched and Reviewed some movies on Rottom this past week, I guess it could be a new frontier, if i continue it. To add even more focus and less distractions I tried to cut unhealthy beverages this week fully So that’s one more easy way to shape your environment and thus shape your habits, Half of 2019 has gone by, there was literally nothing to do except read,write or for a change go outside. It was awesome. I am writing again out of sheer boredom, I am also changing the path aka trying conventional things for once in my life, and I think its fine if you’re actually getting something done. Just writing out these words counts as doing something in my future book. And since I got this buzz on, I’m having a fun time while I do it. The thing about alcohol, is that is takes us to this place of unlimited possibilities. I mean when you're on alcohol everything sounds like a good idea. It’s wonderful but completely irrational and you don’t realize that until the next day. For a brief mo…

Comfy

The Last Post was pretty disturbing right!? I woke up today and felt why did i post that, last night when i wrote it, I poured my heart out into that post because that's how I really feel about being dark skinned well, its another day, another story to tell let the chips fall wherever they may.

I'm being way too comfy with my life these days I should probably work more instead of finding different kind of excuses not to work everyday. Finding the perfect motivation is so hard because when you will find it maybe at that time your life would've moved on, but like the last post this is called LOSING THE HOPE and setting myself free I have a mini-micro-nano online Business, I have fun, I have friends and I am happy.

I am out here learning from every encounter and journey i had been a part of. This is what education and self improvement means to me questioning everything, being vulnerable,unnerving, uncertain and human.

One more thing Please do not judge me on the basis of my …

Realist

I want to live on the other side, I want to live on the edge, man. Looks like fun, Everything is so happy and seriously, talking I don't how long I am going to feel this way, its great! So, for a very longtime I had a crush on this girl and yesterday I went to her and straight up said, HEY ! whats up... she was so surprised because i have never ever talked to her at work, I'm always very quiet. She thought it was funny we had a conversation it went very smoothly, obviously nothing happened but i really do think that she might be wondering what has happened to me. I mean its crazy, even i didn't know what happened to me yesterday. I daydream a lot. Like all the time. because of that I lose attention talking to other people. but I'm a realist I always confess everything here on this journal, and I also think that girl, whom i talked to do not read this at all. Why I'm being so fidgety here I'm never like this. Lost in Thoughts.

I'm so done with this College …

Procrastination

hey people,

its safe to say that i've successfully ventured past my life of procrastinating things even though i'm posting this here after a whole month of my absence now i'm actually looking forward to keep my web ventures alive and focusing on my life more as a playwright, the way it should've all been in the month of August. Yeah, obviously i'm late, as i said "I'm a Serious Procrastinator" last month i even thought of to put a final farewell ramble here but dropped the idea because i was too lazy to even write that, I keep saying I’m writing a book and i am serious about it I’ve written a lot of chapters here and there but for some reason they do not tend to make any sense, there is still a lot of hardwork left to do on that .

In other news, the little notes in my diary always keep nagging me to add some discipline to my work. For which i've had some serious conversations with my editor but she said "you wanted to be free, you're fre…

Avoiding

There are some things and phases in life which you want to avoid and ignore as much as possible but because of that you think about those specific things too much and that hits you. After August 16th of this month my habit of procrastinating came to an end and i finally finished my manuscript and the web series which i was writing for well actually assisting someone in writing but its all good i'll get the credits the money never really mattered to me anyway.

Coming to Avoiding the things during the Last Weekend a psychiatrist diagnosed me with Minor Effects of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder(OCD) so, now i am a 'Little Bit of OCD'. I'll be honest i was avoiding the symptoms of it for a longtime whether it was during the convos with some people or getting into the little details of not so important things. I was out for some phonography today and i didn't know why i felt so unnatural and forced while i was taking pictures nothing turned out good enough to post on In…

Hot Day !

"Life isn’t about someday or yesterday. It isn’t about what could have been or what may someday be. It’s about today, right now, this very moment. It’s about falling in love with the world around us every day." - Nope, the lines written in the inverted commas aren't true by the way today was a very hot day and i had to do some very important work on a project outside my man cave, by this i mean i love to do the work but i can't take those hot air slaps and the level of humiliation this warmth season is giving me. Other reason i don't like working outside in the summer is that i am SUPER SWEATY.

My body produce so much sweat that i could fill a bucket of it everyday, oh yeah... it is that disgusting and all of this happens even if i'm standing in the shed of a tree or something else. It was a very disturbing day for sure and i don't like to blame consequences but today it was 1000 %  this hot day's fault.

Reflection is a Wonderful Friend and Let's…

Moreover

beer and fizzy sodas and gatorade and water and coffee and green tea and brown bread and cookies and chips and popcorns and baked biscuits and orange juice and smoothies and oatmeal and pistachios and cashews and almonds and apricot and hazelnut and yogurt and bananas and apples and carrots and kale and broccoli and butter and fries and toast and cheese and pasta and cereal and chocolates and weed and adderall and xanax and aspirins and pain killers and becosules and cellulose and bourbon cookies and daily dairy and supplements and protein powder and shake mix and vitamins and minerals and nutrients and energy and calories and fat and cholestrol and blood and pressure and force and momentum and power and work done and confidence and lifestyle and fun and money and writing and phonography and loving and self care and sex and pleasure and personality and happiness and sadness and anxiety and depression and confusion and drama and crying and sleeping and waking up and walking and readin…

Lucid Life

Highlight: A major "party plan" got canceled today. 

On a Positive Note:

Another day another story to tell life is running its course let the chips fall wherever they may. I am enjoying this ride and these days i am living the life to the fullest i've never been happier like this really all the good things are happening to me. For the first time it feels like everything is sorted out. The key to keep writing is to keep living i don't care anymore about the people who hate me for no valid reason i am doing my thing. I am happy and i am loving every bit of work i am doing plus getting excited about the future with no worries at all. It feels great that my mad past is over and glad that happiness is all around me. Last Year i did an experiment with my future and it turned out to be right i am hyped over everything haha!.!.! at last living that LUCID LIFE... I have finally learned that if you strategize something right than it will happen at the right time. You just need…

BETTER

"Hello ! You're Awesome great to see people in our generation still enjoying writing, reading and compiling words. Keep it up. man !!!" these were the golden words from a stranger's mouth when we had a conversation around 2 months back at an event for some Content Company. Conversations like this helps you get "BETTER" in your work and most importantly you feel "BETTER" from the inside. As most of the people just criticize people so much and they pass hatred to other people all the time... huge shout out to that stranger for helping me getting Better... from today let's appreciate everyone on all the good things they do. here's to being BETTER from now on.

I like getting BETTER

Thanks For Reading

Prateek Gupta

12:59 AM

Delhi, India


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