Prateek Gupta

Welcome to Prateek's Lockdown Diary again, how are you guys doing ??? The longer you go without working out, the less tone you get, the more weight you gain, the less likely you’ll ever start working out again. The longer you go without posting a journal, the more anxious you get about posting one, the less likely you’ll start posting again. Same paradox. Morning! woke up on the sofa. The TV’s on. because last night out of sheer boredom I started watching "The Vanishing of Sidney Hall" at an odd hour but let me tell you its a great movie ! It’s 5am. You turn the TV off and you sit there. You feel a little groggy, No bread and No sugar. did the same old breakfast and watched some News again about this demon Coronavirus. Took a shower. Clean up the room. helped my mother doing the laundry. Talked to my Life in Mumbai and she gave me few other things to think about, so I'd get my mind of this Pandemic because i just couldn't stop talking about this Covid-19

"Hey" it is needless to say this word here, I bet no one expects posts from a person who prefer daydreams over reality. So, actually there is nothing new with me I've been Avoiding boredom and Avoiding accountability. How did I get here? Everything hurts. My mind is foggy as hell. I hate everyone and everything. I need to bite my tongue and save face as best I can. Avoid people. Next Month I'm off to Mumbai for a few days Drinking lots of water because the trainer said so also I don't want myself to be turning into a Junk Food eating werewolf. I cleaned my room. Sweating and with drawling and hating myself. Shame and guilt flooding my thoughts. I should finally write that final excerpt for my client Will I ever learn? something is wrong with me. My place is clean now. I still feel stable. I’m gonna read now until I fall asleep. Keep chugging back some water. It’ll be about a week or so before I feel good again. That’s what I get. Atoning for my sins. 

Before starting this post I want to say that the content of this post is just my opinion on this subject and it doesn't apply to everyone. You know that Marriage is the number one cause of Divorce! not being sarcastic it's a cold-heart fact, and one of the most important reason why I don't want to get married at all, Wedding is a big scam, Marriage is just stupidity and bringing more human offsprings 'Babies' is like the most idiotic thing someone will ever freakin' do in already immensely Over-Populated Earth especially, when you are also seeing that every day every minute the resources on the Earth are declining. On the other hand, Marriage requires regular work, Trust and it is build on Sacrifices. About sacrifices - I'm already a Self-Centered guy, I cannot make an effort to sacrifice Fizzy Beverages for a healthy lifestyle then how I'll be able to make any sacrifice for my Partner, I mean there are thousand of reasons for not getting Married. Onc

It took me long enough to come to the realization that if your life is so cool you're fly or your websites and content are popping over internet. No one freaking cares people have so much interesting things to worry about. People always point out your weaknesses they comment over your dark skin. Seriously, talking i'm fed up with the dark skin slurs people pass everyday i mean really don't you have anything better to do with your time come on get over it there is a life over it. Last week when i was off from desk work due to personal reasons my very own editor rejected 17 proposal drafts sent by me so, About work the thing which bothers me the most right now is that i am not critical of my ideas. I need to change something with myself, write constantly create exclusive content which i was doing in the past and actually the work i did in the past is also paying me well so, i guess i just have to be genuine once again. I am rocking in the FREE world, Literally. Thanks

Hey Everyone... Longtime No See... well I've been busy the last 15 days. 15 days is actually a really longtime in journal days, its like a whole fad has gone by or something. anyway, Inspiration doesn't come easy as you think it does, I had some experiences in the past where i learnt this in the hardest way possible. The Time when all of my ideas fell apart sometimes i feel happy about that time because i knew that i was only letting myself down,  i totally hate it when i let other people down. I’m in a good place right now, and to answer why i am not with my commercial writing clan anymore because: Rather than express whatever angst and malaise that gets dealt my way by writing profane drafts, scripts and posts littered with curse words and crude allegories. I'd rather love to spend time imagining how immensely beautiful this life has the perfect potential of being. Sincerely, I'm done with those people who always tried to take credit of the work i did in my unaccount

When I'm at Writing workshops, watching movies or at general public conventions i observe people and their relationships in like how do they carry it ?  after a Lot of observing and roughly studying There is one thing that i kind of have a grasp upon, that you can't make somebody feel the way you do about them that's impossible. I know that its heartbreaking and rough but it is actually a Cold-Hard Fact. You always have to be honest with the other person and most importantly you have to be honest to yourself its all about the Honesty, thats how we can all really be. Don't lie right!? and at sometimes its okay to lie because its the important things that matter, if we talk about relationships some people who come into our life could really bring the different side in ourselves it can be bright or dark it doesn't matter the thing is that this side exists and it was inside you for all these years you don't have to hate it, it came out for the betterment of your so