Prateek Gupta

Oh Hey Journal, I am so sorry that I abandoned you again !.! Seriously telling you I have spent the vast majority of the last 6 months or so, planted in my command center, working. Don’t get me wrong, that is actually a good thing. I am blessed to absolutely love my work, which tends to lead to me spending way too much time working. I am determined to find a healthy work-life balance. or Whatever that is. Does it actually exist? So, where the heck did my motivation go for actually Living life outside of work? I honestly don’t have a clue where to start. I just know that it is beyond time for me to start taking action because I am certainly not going to find whatever it is that I seem to be searching for without taking some actual steps to get out of the rut I seem to be in. “The courage and strength that you so desperately seek is right there within you. Close your eyes and feel it. It has been there all along…” - Owl City  This process is definitely going to be baby steps for me. Even

“The first draft of anything is shit.” - Ernest Hemingway To me, the reason I have trouble sitting down and writing is because I have nothing to write about. I'm forcing myself, i should just live life and write when I want to. When it comes naturally. I'm just a human being. Fucking true facts right here. the daily sequence of events is spot on. Endless circles of “but this first…” Depression is just this phase everyone goes through in life, either short or long, severe or mild, and can be a result of many different things, circumstances, brain chemistry, nature, nurture, negative thoughts, diet, drug abuse, etc. and can usually be treated with clean living (exercise, diet, sleep) and cognitive behavioral therapy (fancy term for attitude adjustment) and/or medications, as well as a healthy balance of work (that you’re preferably proud of and at least don’t hate), family, and friends. Wow I should write a textbook or something. That is if I did write regularly. What’s it be

I don't believe none of the leaders the media is mentioning today everybody is crying and calling out each other for attention they don't care about the people or the country they actually only care about if their political party is in power or their pockets are filled with more election funds.so lets see what are they actually standing up for also I am not gonna mention them by their names: 1. The One:  'A Narcissist can't die because then the Entire world would end' this sentence describes our Current Prime Minister really well in my opinion he cannot answer one single question in a proper debate and yet he wants movies to be made on him. 5 years back when he came in power and made a lot of promises and by saying A Lot i really mean "A LOT". The Bias Pre-Electoral Polls are rooting for him, Bias Media is rooting for him wherever he goes all he talks about is the failures of Governments before 2014 but not a single word about the promises he made to

monologue 63 Inner Voice: You better complete all these assignments before the Diwali week !! Me: I'll do it in the night. Inner Voice: Okay ! I believe you. 7 hours later Inner Voice: So, its 11 PM now where your assignment at ? Me: Shut up ! you are such a pain in the tush aren't you ? Stop bugging me ! Inner Voice: Hey ! language...  It's your goal not mine. Me: Okay, I will do it ! after finishing my night pages. Inner Voice: Well I haven't recorded any night pages work from you in Weeks. Which pages are you talking about ??? Me: Oh ! let's talk about that... You haven’t been around for Months and now you're back at it again Interfering and stuff ?? Inner Voice:  I’m always here. You just don’t always hear me. Me: just go away !.!.! in the morning Inner Voice: Where are you headed ? Me: Yo, you're back i finished 3 of the assignments last night. You Happy Now ??? ' Inner Voice: Just 3 your goal was to do

Words play an active role in everyone lives, well surely it does have a lot of importance in my life last week, i got reviewed by my editor and it was terrible. There is still a lot of work needed to be done, my editor; she is really good at what she does and always tells me if i'm going wrong that is actually what i admire the most about her. She wrote a one-liner about my unpublished manuscript stating "Writer is presenting an unflattering description !" and after i got the e-mail i saw UNFLATTERING DESCRIPTION was written in bold and my spirits went down. but, that is the thing you get down and some things come to cheer you up. The bad is the enemy of the best, I have a good life i got better since last year i remember when I was sad. I really don't like talking about being sad. I think the term "depression" is overused, If it’s circumstantial, then you’re just sad. And there’s so much more stigma about being sad than being depressed. obviously I didn&