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dreamy dilemma

Watched and Reviewed some movies on Rottom this past week, I guess it could be a new frontier, if i continue it. To add even more focus and less distractions I tried to cut unhealthy beverages this week fully So that’s one more easy way to shape your environment and thus shape your habits, Half of 2019 has gone by, there was literally nothing to do except read,write or for a change go outside. It was awesome. I am writing again out of sheer boredom, I am also changing the path aka trying conventional things for once in my life, and I think its fine if you’re actually getting something done. Just writing out these words counts as doing something in my future book. And since I got this buzz on, I’m having a fun time while I do it. The thing about alcohol, is that is takes us to this place of unlimited possibilities. I mean when you're on alcohol everything sounds like a good idea. It’s wonderful but completely irrational and you don’t realize that until the next day. For a brief mo…

Comfy

The Last Post was pretty disturbing right!? I woke up today and felt why did i post that, last night when i wrote it, I poured my heart out into that post because that's how I really feel about being dark skinned well, its another day, another story to tell let the chips fall wherever they may.

I'm being way too comfy with my life these days I should probably work more instead of finding different kind of excuses not to work everyday. Finding the perfect motivation is so hard because when you will find it maybe at that time your life would've moved on, but like the last post this is called LOSING THE HOPE and setting myself free I have a mini-micro-nano online Business, I have fun, I have friends and I am happy.

I am out here learning from every encounter and journey i had been a part of. This is what education and self improvement means to me questioning everything, being vulnerable,unnerving, uncertain and human.

One more thing Please do not judge me on the basis of my …

being darker

I am this dark ugly dude, you know what I'm saying I'm a realist. I see handsome boys its plain and simple I'm no handsome boy. But I got a kind of this uplifted average dark ugly male personality, most importantly regardless of this color i can do whatever the frick i want. Get some brands rolling and go all out that's my style. For me being darker is life, it's the truth, it's what God gave me, it's what i received from my parents and yes, generally people do not like dark skinned individuals in a room it disturbs them. Especially in India.

Indians have a nerve to be the racist, actually Indians are the most racist people on the planet, Indians berate their very own country mates from North East India, well that's a whole other topic. but as a Dark-Skinned guy myself I once conducted a study where i asked random people "why there was a need to remind a dark skinned guy/girl that he/she is dark ??" by passing dark skin slurs at him/her. I me…

Judgemental

Don't be so quick to judge a person, take a chance to know the person before you judge a person and that goes for anybody not just me. Suppose if you hear something really negative about a person, please do not make an opinion right on the spot, there a three sides of every story asses the whole scenario/situation before you make an opinion.

Furthermore being Judgemental leads to negativity because of the obvious reason. In the past, I was all cool with it but in recent months I've learned a lot on how to be reactive in these such situations, being judged all the time is also depressive for oneself and As one who battles depression, I want to tell you that some days are extremely tough and on these days even getting out of bed in the morning can be a major accomplishment.

Storytime: Last Week me and one of my friend went to a Volkswagen Dealership to check out one of their cars, we liked the car but the sales representative there was so, rude like seriously he was judging bot…

Marriage

Before starting this post I want to say that the content of this post is just my opinion on this subject and it doesn't apply to everyone. You know that Marriage is the number one cause of Divorce! not being sarcastic it's a cold-heart fact, and one of the most important reason why I don't want to get married at all, Wedding is a big scam, Marriage is just stupidity and bringing more human offsprings 'Babies' is like the most idiotic thing someone will ever freakin' do in already immensely Over-Populated Earth especially, when you are also seeing that every day every minute the resources on the Earth are declining. On the other hand, Marriage requires regular work, Trust and it is build on Sacrifices. About sacrifices - I'm already a Self-Centered guy, I cannot make an effort to sacrifice Fizzy Beverages for a healthy lifestyle then how I'll be able to make any sacrifice for my Partner, I mean there are thousand of reasons for not getting Married.

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Realist

I want to live on the other side, I want to live on the edge, man. Looks like fun, Everything is so happy and seriously, talking I don't how long I am going to feel this way, its great! So, for a very longtime I had a crush on this girl and yesterday I went to her and straight up said, HEY ! whats up... she was so surprised because i have never ever talked to her at work, I'm always very quiet. She thought it was funny we had a conversation it went very smoothly, obviously nothing happened but i really do think that she might be wondering what has happened to me. I mean its crazy, even i didn't know what happened to me yesterday. I daydream a lot. Like all the time. because of that I lose attention talking to other people. but I'm a realist I always confess everything here on this journal, and I also think that girl, whom i talked to do not read this at all. Why I'm being so fidgety here I'm never like this. Lost in Thoughts.

I'm so done with this College …

blog

About these writing softwares i tried a few of them today to improve my writing like take Grammarly for a second here They’ve already found “3 writing issues”. Good thing that was free and now I’m done with it, forever, I'm like who the hell are you to tell me that you've found 3 mistake in my writing come on .!! i haven't listened to my editor in almost one and a half year about that, also someone dm'ed me that why i use "Like"so much in my journal. First of all, why're you even judging a journal ??? I'll do whatever i want you brat !' do not read, I don't give a damn about anything. There we go, back on my liberating, crap of the world blog. "Blog". Couldn’t they think of any other word to use for words on the internet? I have done some serious blogging in year 2016, 2017 and 2018 at once i was handling approximately 43 independent article websites and i do not even have a count of words and companies i have written for. In 2019 y…