Prateek Gupta

Hey" it is needless to say this word here, I bet no one expects posts from a person who prefer daydreams over reality. So, actually there is nothing new with me I've been Avoiding boredom and Avoiding accountability. How did I get here? Everything hurts. My mind is foggy as hell. I hate everyone and everything. I need to bite my tongue and save face as best I can. Avoid people. Next Month I'm off to Mumbai for a few days Drinking lots of water because the trainer said so also I don't want myself to be turning into a Junk Food eating werewolf. I cleaned my room. Sweating and with drawling and hating myself. Shame and guilt flooding my thoughts. I should finally write that final excerpt for my client Will I ever learn? something is wrong with me. My place is clean now. I still feel stable. I’m gonna read now until I fall asleep. Keep chugging back some water. It’ll be about a week or so before I feel good again. That’s what I get. Atoning for my sins.  I still remember s

Oh Hey Journal, I am so sorry that I abandoned you again !.! Seriously telling you I have spent the vast majority of the last 6 months or so, planted in my command center, working. Don’t get me wrong, that is actually a good thing. I am blessed to absolutely love my work, which tends to lead to me spending way too much time working. I am determined to find a healthy work-life balance. or Whatever that is. Does it actually exist? So, where the heck did my motivation go for actually Living life outside of work? I honestly don’t have a clue where to start. I just know that it is beyond time for me to start taking action because I am certainly not going to find whatever it is that I seem to be searching for without taking some actual steps to get out of the rut I seem to be in. “The courage and strength that you so desperately seek is right there within you. Close your eyes and feel it. It has been there all along…” - Owl City  This process is definitely going to be baby steps for me. Even

the title of this post is "post" because my mind is fed up and i don't know where I'm heading... so, where I have been ??? pretty much nowhere. just here not writing and procrastinating for months. anyway... All my lights are off. Besides my glowing Laptop, it’s nearly pitch black in my humble one bedroom. I’m wearing a DCEU Flash T-Shirt I got from free authority warehouse sales I like this t-shirt because it makes me look that I'm a fan of Flash but I am not. I am the Green Lantern fan boy from the wrong side of the tracks. My nose and hands are still cold though. It’s much quieter in my area. I’m in a tucked-in neighborhood now, far away from any busy streets. Switching to this place from my usual 3 storey cosy-flexy Home it is not saving me any money well I previously said Frugality was the new cool but Fuck That. I'm flexing, I'm content fuck it all, I am just living. As usual, I’m going to be awake and the world will sleep . It’s so quiet that I can

You ever had those days where Life is just beating you up where you feel overwhelmed about everything in life that seems to be working against you where it feels like everything is falling apart sometimes you are just not okay and if you are like me, it hurts so much to think that you are not Perfect. Media and society tell us that we should be better we should be farther along in our Career, you should have this materialistic thing to be happy or whatever and though it is important to constantly keep growing but we take this message in its extreme form, Where we police ourselves and shame ourselves for not being Perfect. We are horrified that "Oh my God! I am not living the Perfect Life". We end up beating ourselves so much because of that. While in this Quarantine I've had so many days lately where I compared myself to my friends with regular jobs and here I am draining my bank account as a Freelancer. We all have moments some may be more than others.  A quick

Hey, you don’t recognize me as a conscious being, but I exist and am constantly around the like buttons on your vlogs, and I want to speak up for once, after listening to your some of your recent podcasts with Pierson  so, real quick… I lurk and pay attention everything you do and have been since I discovered you during 2017 Summer. And from then to now you ended up becoming a huge inspiration that I never really thought I’d find or need since I’m very emotionally self sufficient and independent, and just assume I’d always value my own time and making meaningful contributions way before connecting. You’ve proved me wrong there. I know that I must feed my brain by embracing my creativity and striving to be more articulate and assertive in catering my own path. Along with learning in this unconventional way. I view you as comedic smart in multiple ways, and it’s an amazing thing to watch in the vlogs, and especially the year 2020 with your songs becoming my spotify playlist starters.

I am going to be totally honest about some of the creators on YouTube here in India. So, I used to write for some big creators in India I have written over 40 odd sketch scripts and general monologue content in 2017 and 2018 for different Youtubers here, first up they seem totally nice when you watch them on Youtube but not so much when you write for them, They're the absolute worst. You know as they say "Reality is often Disappointing" it is the perfect saying. All of them are pretty narc up in there brains first they totally think that a writer who writes for them doesn't deserve to be paid... like they're doing a favor to us using our content to make money. * "We will give you Credits" is the most popular sentence and it always comes first out of their mouth. * It is always your fault when they can't enact a scene from your Written monologue. * "Come up with something fresh, dude!" like you're paying me a heck load of a money

do you guys ever try not to do something, its tricky isn't it "Self-Control - A Stigma". I guess if we all had perfect Self-Control we would be these movie gods and rockstars but that is the thing we are not and to most of the extent that is fine. The point still remains the same why can't we control ourselves, Ironically the movie "Fight Club" (oh, yes i am movie nerd) is not about Physical Fighting it is about what you want ti choose a Chick or a Broccoli, Reading a Book or Reality TV. It showed us that the Self-Control is the epitome to ultimate spirituality we face everyday. Like Meditation is Free, Fasting is Free, Showing Gratitude for things is Free, Spirituality is Free but Consumerism isn't Free. It is a Trap actually Consumerism is the exact opposite. It contains Strong animalistic desires Sex, Sugar, Porn and Junk Food of any kind and We can actually escape this trap of Consumerism and Ego. WE CAN BECOME FREE, if we only just try... LOSIN