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the title of this post is "post" because my mind is fed up and i don't know where I'm heading... so, where I have been ??? pretty much nowhere. just here not writing and procrastinating for months. anyway...All my lights are off. Besides my glowing Laptop, it’s nearly pitch black in my humble one bedroom. I’m wearing a DCEU Flash T-Shirt I got from free authority warehouse sales I like this t-shirt because it makes me look that I'm a fan of Flash but I am not. I am the Green Lantern fan boy from the wrong side of the tracks. My nose and hands are still cold though. It’s much quieter in my area. I’m in a tucked-in neighborhood now, far away from any busy streets. Switching to this place from my usual 3 storey cosy-flexy Home it is not saving me any money well I previously said Frugality was the new cool but Fuck That. I'm flexing, I'm content fuck it all, I am just living.As usual, I’m going to be awake and the world will sleep . It’s so quiet that I can h…

Why I Stopped Writing for Indian YouTubers ???

I am going to be totally honest about some of the creators on YouTube here in India. So, I used to write for some big creators in India I have written over 40 odd sketch scripts and general monologue content in 2017 and 2018 for different Youtubers here, first up they seem totally nice when you watch them on Youtube but not so much when you write for them, They're the absolute worst. You know as they say "Reality is often Disappointing" it is the perfect saying. All of them are pretty narc up in there brains first they totally think that a writer who writes for them doesn't deserve to be paid... like they're doing a favor to us using our content to make money.

* "We will give you Credits" is the most popular sentence and it always comes first out of their mouth.

* It is always your fault when they can't enact a scene from your Written monologue.

* "Come up with something fresh, dude!" like you're paying me a heck load of a money to do…

Lockdown #5: Self-Control

do you guys ever try not to do something, its tricky isn't it "Self-Control - A Stigma". I guess if we all had perfect Self-Control we would be these movie gods and rockstars but that is the thing we are not and to most of the extent that is fine. The point still remains the same why can't we control ourselves, Ironically the movie "Fight Club" (oh, yes i am movie nerd) is not about Physical Fighting it is about what you want ti choose a Chick or a Broccoli, Reading a Book or Reality TV. It showed us that the Self-Control is the epitome to ultimate spirituality we face everyday. Like Meditation is Free, Fasting is Free, Showing Gratitude for things is Free, Spirituality is Free but Consumerism isn't Free. It is a Trap actually Consumerism is the exact opposite. It contains Strong animalistic desires Sex, Sugar, Porn and Junk Food of any kind and We can actually escape this trap of Consumerism and Ego.

WE CAN BECOME FREE, if we only just try...

LOSING A…

why you should stay alive

* Late night walks with your favorite person.
* All the birthdays, anniversaries and The 1st, 5th, 10th, 25th & 50th anniversaries.
* First dates that turns into beautiful relationships and maybe a "Wedding" who knows.
* Having children and watching them grow up.
* And then their children.
* Seeing the beautiful unknown realms that exist in this world.
* Going to concerts,conventions and the places where you always wanted to go.
* The one look your soulmate gives you that simultaneously means everything and nothing.
* Tomorrow could easily be better, and the good days always come you will never get to experience any of this or a lot more if you never stay.

this is IMPORTANT: Please never hesitate to come to me for advice, love and acceptance. I hope to be your friend and a source of comfortability in your life just like everything we're all here together and let's be honest shit gets hard and we all get lonely at some point. Just don't be afraid to confront …

Lockdown #4: Holding Onto Anger

Life is truly just far too short to get hung up on things we cannot control. - Diksha 2020

HOLDING ONTO ANGER IS LIKE DRINKING POISON - well these times are crazy and calmness has left the body and brain. Yes, I realize that anger is a natural emotion that we can’t always control feeling but we certainly have the power to CHOOSE how we are going to respond to that anger. If we scream, holler, stomp our feet and throw a good old fashioned temper tantrum (and make sure we tell everyone on Twitter) what are we gonna solve besides dragging everyone else down with us? Is that fair? Yes, I also realize that you have the right to be angry and I don’t have a clue what you are going through, nor can I understand without experiencing it myself.

I could share 23 years of reasons to holler and tell the world that life isn’t fair, but what the heck is the point? Will it change anything at all? I don't think so. What if we decided to try something new? What if we DECIDED to use our anger to po…

Lockdown #1: Frugality

All my lights are off. Besides my glowing Laptop, it’s nearly pitch black in my humble bedroom. I’m wearing this Bloodshot Tee that I bought in Mumbai. I like this t-shirt because it makes me look like I'm a fan of comic series but seriously telling you that it's a lie I'm a fan of Jason David Frank that's why I wear it. Man, Quarantine is hard, just when i thought that my venture was going good, Coronavirus came for it hard and pushed it further but still here Alive and Kicking I'm that mechanic trucker boy from the wrong side of the tracks. My nose and hands are still cold though. It’s much quieter in my Area. I actually like it, for once people are following the Lockdown which is a good thing, and this silence living far away from any busy streets. hmm, Good.

Saving the Money and living with Frugality is the new cool now. I’m awake and the world might be asleep now at 12:40 am. It’s so quiet that I can hear the ringing in my ears. It reminds me of all the havoc…

Answers to The 10 things You Can Ask Me

1.    What was his first name in 1998 ?
Answer: It's actually very comedic that my Birth Name was "Nekchand" Gupta later on my parents changed it and thanks to god that they did now my name is Prateek Gupta.
2.    Who is Deeksha Diwan ?
Answer: She is basically my guardian angel since June of 2018, the only lifeline I have left in the artistic world my lovely editor/business manager/content corporate/deal cracker/excellent idea pitcher to be honest I cannot imagine my work life without her.
3.    How much work has he done on his novel this week ?
Answer: Not much, but I constantly do my morning pages. I have 2 WIP's and wrote for 3 clients this week. so, I am proud of myself. 4.   What is the other career Prateek had before Freelance Content Writing ?
Answer: I was a customer service executive for a bit, then joined a theater group as a playwright but left it because as my parents would suggest "it was coming in the way of my studies" founded a team and then a who…

Voices

From the past two months after my exams and that one of a kind internship I was really having some trouble with my sleeping, Insomnia hits every night and the best thing in the world i.e "Music" isn't helping me with my sleep, because of this particular reason I started using sleeping apps which lead me to ASMRs (Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response) where I have now learnt a lot about the Voices within which I'm going to elaborate below:

* Voice of Hope 

The voice of hope still believes in fairy tales and happily ever after. It is often quickly smothered by the voice of reason, and ridiculed by the voice of darkness and doubt. But somehow, no matter what happens in life, this voice continues to survive.Yes, sometimes the light dims to barely a spark, but something keeps it alive, keeps it believing.


* Voice of Darkness and Doubt

The voice of darkness and doubt often believes that it is the voice of reason, that it is simply knocking some sense into me, forcing me to …

Accountability

"Hey" it is needless to say this word here, I bet no one expects posts from a person who prefer daydreams over reality. So, actually there is nothing new with me I've been Avoiding boredom and Avoiding accountability. How did I get here? Everything hurts. My mind is foggy as hell. I hate everyone and everything. I need to bite my tongue and save face as best I can. Avoid people.
Next Month I'm off to Mumbai for a few days Drinking lots of water because the trainer said so also I don't want myself to be turning into a Junk Food eating werewolf.
I cleaned my room. Sweating and with drawling and hating myself. Shame and guilt flooding my thoughts. I should finally write that final excerpt for my client Will I ever learn? something is wrong with me. My place is clean now. I still feel stable. I’m gonna read now until I fall asleep. Keep chugging back some water. It’ll be about a week or so before I feel good again. That’s what I get. Atoning for my sins. 
I still re…

-22-

It's an encouraging thing when you pour yourself into something and people go out of their way to let you know that they enjoy it. like even priceless.

Just for once I want my life to be like a 90s movie.

As I said earlier I have a lot of extra aimless and senseless material which is of no use, i will be throwing all of that here from now on. because why not ?! below is one excerpt, i wrote randomly:

-Twenty Two-
I looked in the mirror in the morning and what did I see?
A average dark twenty-two year old looking back at me.
How is that possible, how can it be?
Wasn’t it yesterday I was nineteen?
was living my best life, without all the worries.

With twenty-five just a stone’s throw away
I begin to wonder how to keep it all at bay
Then I realize some aren’t blessed to see that day
Life is short and I'm not getting younger,
I wanna get rich like JP and Corden,
100k a month , sounds pretty golden.

Another decade? to see... I think I’ll be okay.


update* on the book: move is mine …

the magic

Every journey starts with that first step, even knowing that there may be several course corrections along the way. It’s not enough to dream and plan. At some point, you have to take action, even if you’re not quite sure where you’re headed. I have spent 2 years now dreaming about converting my non-fiction manuscript into a book but I don't know where I'm going wrong because its just not happening. The Editor assigned to me by a literary agent is giving up on me now, I just can't find the perfect balance in the storyline and realism it leads upto. One thing I do know about myself is that when I don’t have new challenges, I tend to get bored. When that happens, I just sort of go on autopilot. I go through the motions, where the excitement dissipates quickly. For me, it is like trekking the same forest over and over again. Even though you see new things each time you go, eventually it just gets old. Step one for me will be taking some random online classes to check out thin…

nostalgically cool

So, Everyone’s concept of cool is different, i started the post with 'So' it is grammatically incorrect wait is it!? Nobody cares. As i was saying everyone's concept of being cool is extremely different, for some Money is cool, for some having a nerdy collection of something is cool but Basically, people who live in the moment are actually the Coolest people. Interesting people that live their own life and say what they want that’s my idea of cool. So, can people change with time ? It’s kind of a mystery. Sometimes I get in these moods and get all hyped up like nothing is wrong, be all healthy, think long-term, logical. boring decisions on the road to SUCCESS! Then the next day I’m back to my normal ‘Fun World’ paradigm. Do we'll strive to be better? Or do we just enjoy the ride and go with the flow? Can there be a balance? Tell me this. If one guy lives his life eating oats and brown bread with peanut butter with a caffeine drink in hand every morning and he’s happy.…

dreamy dilemma

Watched and Reviewed some movies on Rottom this past week, I guess it could be a new frontier, if i continue it. To add even more focus and less distractions I tried to cut unhealthy beverages this week fully So that’s one more easy way to shape your environment and thus shape your habits, Half of 2019 has gone by, there was literally nothing to do except read,write or for a change go outside. It was awesome. I am writing again out of sheer boredom, I am also changing the path aka trying conventional things for once in my life, and I think its fine if you’re actually getting something done. Just writing out these words counts as doing something in my future book. And since I got this buzz on, I’m having a fun time while I do it. The thing about alcohol, is that is takes us to this place of unlimited possibilities. I mean when you're on alcohol everything sounds like a good idea. It’s wonderful but completely irrational and you don’t realize that until the next day. For a brief mo…

being darker

I am this dark ugly dude, you know what I'm saying I'm a realist. I see handsome boys its plain and simple I'm no handsome boy. But I got a kind of this uplifted average dark ugly male personality, most importantly regardless of this color i can do whatever the frick i want. Get some brands rolling and go all out that's my style. For me being darker is life, it's the truth, it's what God gave me, it's what i received from my parents and yes, generally people do not like dark skinned individuals in a room it disturbs them. Especially in India.

Indians have a nerve to be the racist, actually Indians are the most racist people on the planet, Indians berate their very own country mates from North East India, well that's a whole other topic. but as a Dark-Skinned guy myself I once conducted a study where i asked random people "why there was a need to remind a dark skinned guy/girl that he/she is dark ??" by passing dark skin slurs at him/her. I me…

Judgemental

Don't be so quick to judge a person, take a chance to know the person before you judge a person and that goes for anybody not just me. Suppose if you hear something really negative about a person, please do not make an opinion right on the spot, there a three sides of every story asses the whole scenario/situation before you make an opinion.

Furthermore being Judgemental leads to negativity because of the obvious reason. In the past, I was all cool with it but in recent months I've learned a lot on how to be reactive in these such situations, being judged all the time is also depressive for oneself and As one who battles depression, I want to tell you that some days are extremely tough and on these days even getting out of bed in the morning can be a major accomplishment.

Storytime: Last Week me and one of my friend went to a Volkswagen Dealership to check out one of their cars, we liked the car but the sales representative there was so, rude like seriously he was judging bot…

Realist

I want to live on the other side, I want to live on the edge, man. Looks like fun, Everything is so happy and seriously, talking I don't how long I am going to feel this way, its great! So, for a very longtime I had a crush on this girl and yesterday I went to her and straight up said, HEY ! whats up... she was so surprised because i have never ever talked to her at work, I'm always very quiet. She thought it was funny we had a conversation it went very smoothly, obviously nothing happened but i really do think that she might be wondering what has happened to me. I mean its crazy, even i didn't know what happened to me yesterday. I daydream a lot. Like all the time. because of that I lose attention talking to other people. but I'm a realist I always confess everything here on this journal, and I also think that girl, whom i talked to do not read this at all. Why I'm being so fidgety here I'm never like this. Lost in Thoughts.

I'm so done with this College …

blog

About these writing softwares i tried a few of them today to improve my writing like take Grammarly for a second here They’ve already found “3 writing issues”. Good thing that was free and now I’m done with it, forever, I'm like who the hell are you to tell me that you've found 3 mistake in my writing come on .!! i haven't listened to my editor in almost one and a half year about that, also someone dm'ed me that why i use "Like"so much in my journal. First of all, why're you even judging a journal ??? I'll do whatever i want you brat !' do not read, I don't give a damn about anything. There we go, back on my liberating, crap of the world blog. "Blog". Couldn’t they think of any other word to use for words on the internet? I have done some serious blogging in year 2016, 2017 and 2018 at once i was handling approximately 43 independent article websites and i do not even have a count of words and companies i have written for. In 2019 y…

heartbreak

Continuous train of thought that circulated in my mind while i stared at my laptop i was thinking of new ideas for my upcoming projects but couldn't really execute anyone of them because I had something on my mind. I want to talk about heartbreak and how devastated it can be, you know some people are more sensitive than the others its definitely not the millennial problem it has been going on for ages, like Shakespeare is proof that people kill themselves over heartbreak its definitely one of  the most real pain that human heart suffers. And I just wanna say if you’re going through some sort of heartbreak than just keep freaking going ! try keep bettering yourself. You will seem to notice that this person who broke your heart has actually done a lot good for your life in the long run of being in future relationships. I mean you have to understand that you cannot base your happiness on that one person at all, you need to find your happiness inside your heart.

Today when I was writ…

super cheat week

The longer you go without working out, the more muscle mass you loose, the more weight you gain, the less likely you’ll start working out again. Same goes with posting journals the longer you go without posting the more anxious you get about actually posting one, the less likely you’ll start posting again. It’s like living in a world full of everything and nothing.

So, my day started and i randomly decided that this whole week will be a super cheat week and is going to be filled with Fizzy Beverages, Beer, Burger King, and all the other poisonous things you can think of. Complete Freaking Freedom.

About Writing my manuscripts are almost at final stages and more on this subject is coming later, but once in a blue moon I always have a day like this where I seem to get my life in order in merely a few hours. I always think that this might transfer over to tomorrow but it rarely does. Right back to latency; it is perplexing.

I promise that i will achieve all these things one day: Structu…

Who was that Girl ???

I haven’t had any reason to write in a while. I’m in this weird, content state of indifference. Stable. A down-to-earth, “dumb” state of ‘happiness’. I don’t really have anything to complain about. Passion? I’m not passionate anymore. What’s fucked up is that I don’t care that I’m not passionate anymore. Maybe I was never passionate in the first place. Maybe all these years my pretentiousness & ego got the best of me and blinded me from what I really am: a Business Guy I mean i don't have a fancy list of accomplishments but i have done some things. Sometimes my pompous, irrational ego gets the best of me and I think of myself as this suffering artist with all this passion. Its like everyone’s got a plan until they get punched in the face right !? 
Also, I’m gonna wake up tomorrow and have a completely new, perspective on all of this passion thing.
Now coming onto the title of the post I have a lot of extra aimless and senseless material which is of no use, i will be throwing …